Playful Ballads

change is good :) or at least in this situation :)

2010-05-22T13:06:00.002+08:00

it's a beautiful saturday... & Evie has decided to change her blog URL...

no more questions or whatsoever.

i just need personal private space.

& if i trust you with my URL & all you can do is judge me...

then FORGET IT.

still thinking of a cool URL though...

new URL will be up on facebook. :)

love y'all smelly peepz. :)

if you don't have a facebook and wanna read my blog just PM me on msn or drop me an sms.

kays?

LOVES

vee

pain pain & more pain

2010-05-22T03:20:00.002+08:00

it's either the enemy having a mad fun time poking fun at me...

or God is allowing this to happen to test me and build me up.

it's been throat infection, headache, diarrhea, cramps, eye itches, sprained trapezius, and the old back pains are BACK.

it's not that i haven't been taking care. in fact, of late i've been learning how to take care of myself more and more.

more sleep, more nutrition, more not falling... but still the pains.

BUT, whatever it is, i still wanna praise God.

today's cell group message was good.

the SPIRIT OF PRAISE. i want that. every second of my life.

things don't improve when i complain. it doesn't please God either... & it just makes me focus on the negative stuff more.

i must practice the spirit of praise.

besides being cheery and smiley and upbeat most of the time...

to be honest, these few days have been so super tiring.

physically because of all the pain... and then emotionally because i try mad hard to be strong.

today, when i met JoeDear, i was so down...

the gown collection was awkward, the invitation card collection screwed up.

so much for travelling down to clementi. irritated.

tears were welling up in my eyes while typing an sms to Joe.

frustration. gosh, no matter what, i am only human...

but Joe was a darling.

no matter how tired he was from work, he called me his lucky star.

no matter how late he left his workplace, he rushed home to be by my side.

no matter how irritating i was by being whiny and upset... he was patient and loving.

THANKS DEARIE.

you probably don't know... but i can see it in your eyes, when you're getting irritated by my whiny-ness cause you too have had a long day...

but when you look into my eyes... the look of irritation changes to one of love and compassion.

& it is at that moment, that i realise, you could be human and flare up at me and "wake up my idea"...

but you choose to respond in love.

it never fails to amaze me at how blessed i am... to have someone like you in my life.

never wanna take you for granted :)

i really LOVE this picture because of the moon.

i'm obsessed with the nightsky.

& i'm even more obsessed that i get to walk under beautiful nightskies with a precious snugglepumpkinsJOE.

that's how our love was even borned remember? :)

a night of walking under the stars...

& the picture also reminds me of an sms you sent recently... "dearie, if there was only you and i in this world... how nice it would be :)" hee. you ARE SO SWEET!!! love you muchness.

hope you're resting well now. thanks for taking care of me and my back...

& if the LORD watches over the flowers, and paints them with the prettiest colours.

how much more would HE watch over me.

on my own, i am indeed ONLY HUMAN.

but with Christ within, i can be and will be MORE THAN A CONQUERER.

because it is HIM who gives me strength.

& may i choose, Godly living above Emotional living. always... ALWAYS. :)

goodnight world. *more like good morning*

i'll blog more about the whole grad thing tomorrow or something.

hee. LOVE YOU CHEESYPOOFS!

i miss watching southpark & family guy. :p BLEH.

byeee.

i miss my friends

2010-05-21T11:58:00.003+08:00

i miss my friends

i miss my friends very superly much.

neeways, this was what i saw when i came on blogger.

cool ehh? i like the numbers :) hee.

innyhoos, this is a post specially for darlingest friends who have been there for me... in one way or another. i miss you people. VERY MUCH! saved some memories from the past and just taking this moment to share them again...

just to let you all know, you haven't been forgotten and ever if you need someone to be there for you like you were there for me, i will be there.

SIUWEN :) this is one of the many personalised and drawn msgs you sent me over msn.

yes, i've saved a couple of them and looked at them whenever i needed encouragement.

haha :) besides being a great artist, thanks babe for being a great sister and friend :p

I LOVE YOU.

JUSTINOH! just wished you happy birthday not long ago on this very same blog...

but seriously, esp in year 3, cos we did so many projects together, you were the one whom i really poured out alot of my thoughts too.

esp when i thought i met my "hero" or when guys got mad irritating and i needed to talk to someone about it. thanks for being there. i love you donkey, thanks for being my laughing buddy. be it laughing AT me or WITH me. :p

90% KSX! what more can i say? :) i still play the music box you gave me very frequently...

whenever i need to remind myself of that somewhere over the rainbow. :)

thank you for being there almost EVERY night i stayed up to chiong assignments.

it was very encouraging. :) XIE XIE NI ALOTS :) will never forget a 90% like you :p

WeiJun! haha, though i doubt you still read my blog... this is for you :)
thank you dear boy for being that innocent source of inspiration.

you never fail to see things very simply. & it always amazes me.

thanks for those days of chilling out... and for sending me cute pictures you've taken just to make my day.

ohh! and sending me nice songs too :D

p.s - i still don't think i'm ahlian.

plus i upgrade liao... not cute. is ADORABLE :p HEE!

& last but NOT LEAST! :)
WAH CHIA LING.

haha, we never clicked very well, but this dear girl sent me an awesomely sweet message via sms ytd :)

was kinda busy so i didn't reply. but THANKS A MANY BABE!

love you loads.

thank you for being one of my faithful blog readers *winks*

& thanks for just being an encouragement during difficult moments.

thanks God for you :) may you continue to shine for Him... always.

LOVE YOU BABE :)

okiedooks. bfn people.

time to call JOE ~ it's lunch with him AGAIN! yayness. ^^

Vee

an msn conversation

2010-05-20T01:24:00.003+08:00

A: so you going out later?

E: yeah, mtg my bf. why?

A: ooo, are you going to blog tonight?

E: hmm, not sure.. see whether got mood lor... hee.

A: you got anytime no mood to blog ar?

E: HAVE! lol. :p

A: anyway i can predict what you'll blog. want to hear?

E: err... okay?

A: today is a MAD awesome day, i had MAD alot of fun & JOEBOY was such a sweetie.

LOL LOL LOL

she continued abit more... but yes, i guess i've been blogging alot along the same lines.

hee, can't blame me right? i see my JoeBoy everyday.

& to darling A, who didn't want to be mentioned, see i love you so much, this blog post is about you now. you're a really sweet junior i'll never forget. love u muchness.

INNYHOOS! today rained rained and rained. good day to sleep in. but i didn't... i did do some work kays.

tomorrow? i'll be mtg Joe for lunch, heading down to school then back to the east it is again...

which means? WAKE UP EARLY.

so tonight, i will really be a good good girl and head to bed.

but before i go, here's a little LOL for all of you :)

do you have this problem with your socks? I DO! hee.

so here's an honest apology to all my socks. i'm sorry for forever losing you.

i'll try not to :) but then again, it's hard not to.

have you ever had this happen?

i'm kinda like that :p

sometimes... :D when i'm feeling high.

& LAST BUT NOT LEAST! STOP CARROT VIOLENCE!

let's not eat them. hee. cause i don't like eating them!

so 5 stars for the anti carrot violence idea.

:p credits to Natalie Dee. she has many more awesome drawings. go check her out :)

okay guddnaightwurrlld.

have a good night's rest.

miss me. :)

could you keep a secret for me?

2010-05-19T17:03:00.003+08:00

i've got a little secret ain't nobody knows.

& it's a crazy something; got it all planned up my sleeves.

i bet it's gonna make you smile.

i bet it's gonna make you fall head over heels with me.

i bet it's going to be mad special.

you told me when we met, that i'm full of surprises.

& that's the way i am.

i'll keep it in, all hushed about it.

my eyes may hint, my heart will whisper.

but my lips ain't gonna say a thing.

not till i sweep you off your feet.

& let you dance in a world of being pampered and loved.

cause if you capture my heart,

that's what i'll do to you too.

you said if i love you

you'd love me doubly much

if i do the same & you do the same, this love ain't gonna die.

never used to be so mad cheesy.

but you made me discover another side of me.

they say, behind every successful man is a woman.

i say, behind me, is the best MAN i ever could find.

& behind you, is one hell of a crazy girl, who's gonna do her best to make you smile.

you've got me safe, & oh so satisfied.

I BELIEVE :)

2010-05-19T14:18:00.002+08:00

awesome song for everyone who's feeling down and out.

dl-ed it from 4shared already. madly love the song :)

believe in yourselves! :) enjoy~

unasleep

2010-05-19T04:22:00.002+08:00

heh, it's 4am-ish. so much for being a good girl and heading to bed.

couldn't sleep cause the pain was kinda bad.

updated my lifejournal, read a number of my friend's blogs, then i re-read alot of posts from my old (currently locked up) blog.

OMGosh, it's a good thing to keep a journal. cause you really start to see how much you grow over the years.

it's mad paisehness reading my own blog posts. and some of them made me laugh, surprised me and tickled me cause my engrish was so fantastic. haha.

but there were a few, that made me slightly embarrassed.

i guess i really was quite a b**** in the past. hee. so vulgar and FIERCE.

good thing i'm not like that anymore 'else i think JOE would find me a total turn off.

i wanna be his good girl. :p *shy*

INNYHOOS, i'm proud of myself. reading those posts that i wrote during those painful days didn't hurt. neither did i feel regret. guess i'm just so happy with the blessing God has placed in my life, that i'm thankful for all those pain too.

but despite not feeling anything negative, it did make me feel grateful. grateful for JOE.

grateful for the respect he gives me, the love that he showers upon me, everything.

my life is such an interesting one. goshness. i couldn't even remember some of the things that i blogged about. but i'm just glad i'm where i am now.

poly really changes people. :)

blah whatever. starting to feel tired.

off to bed. *for real this time*

nights

loved much

2010-05-19T01:07:00.003+08:00

it's a really chilly night tonight.

i usually love cold windy nights, but not tonight cause i'm cramping up like mad.

Joe was super concerned seeing me in so much pain.

hee. tonight i was a pampered little girl. much sayang-ed.

it's a beautiful thing, Love is.

& i just thank God that i'm much embraced in it.

Neeways, Joe darling, don't have to keep apologising.

it doesn't matter where we are, i enjoy just being with you.

for now, with the building fund and all, i understand that you have to spend less.

why would i get pissed? when my man is choosing to glorify God?

in fact, i'm proud of you. & grateful that you even spent money on me you could have saved on our 99.

so biggie biggie thanks. & precious, you're already very amazing.

don't doubt it. kay? :) you're fantabulous for me. don't doubt that too.

love you muchness.

it's wednesday... 19th May... 12 more days of normal lifestyle...

then, the big O word.

i am really scared. right now, at the moment. every moment spent praying gives me so much strength. every moment spent with Joe, helps me to stay positive. every well wishes from my dear friends help me to stay strong.

but deep inside, i know i have to push myself too. i have to be brave. courageous. keep smiling, keep breathing.

but to those who have been showering me with lots of love and all.

xiexieni.

:) i love all of you. and thank all of you very much too.

alrighty... i'm gonna be a good girl and head to bed.

goodnight world.

may all of you be embraced in love too.

Vange

bubbly love

2010-05-18T17:47:00.002+08:00

just received a phonecall from my babyJOE.

his voice calms the storms of pain that was killing me.

not that the pain magically disappeared. hee. no such thing right.

but it soothed me, and gave me strength to endure the pain surging through my body now.

sometimes it's tough being a girl. but whatever, i'm glad imma GIRL :)

this song MMT of him all the time.

it's the way he makes me feel... the way he makes me smile, the way he tells me he LOVES me.

it's just him... one in a million.

& us, once in a lifetime. :)

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglees in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is fallin' on my window pane
But we are hidin' in a safer place
Under the covers stayin' safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way?
I just, mmm

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
'Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever, wherever, where ever you go
Wherever, wherever, where ever you go

to my darlingest Justinoh ahem i mean DONKEY ahem i mean Toh Yan Shan Justina

2010-05-18T17:24:00.003+08:00

to a very special friend...

Justinah Toh Yan Shan,

small in size but has an awesomely big heart and smile. :)

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!

thank you for being the listening ear, the support, the understanding, the love, the laugh, the hugs, the smiles & the FRIEND who always never fails to be there.

though we haven't met up for a super long time already.

i just want you to know that should you ever need somebody, i'll be here for you.

you're an amazing girl & i love you very much.

i hope you'll accomplish all your dreams in life.

& stay happy. :)

keep smiling & never be afraid to shine just by being you!

LOVE YOU VERY BEARY MUCHNESS.

& i hope to meet you up soon yea?

love you babe.

may this friendship never end.

WITH LOVE,

PIG. :D

p.s - see i finally allow myself to be called pig. haha so you must let me call you donkey. :p

love you girl. :) LOTS.

stupidity

2010-05-18T17:20:00.002+08:00

let's bring stupidity to another level. and call bananas the yellow curved fruit :)

Joe & i were discussing yesterday how this happened.

came up with a really humourous scenario.

what do you think the story behind this is? :)

it's nice to wonder sometimes.

neeways, i maximumly dislike cramps. :(

hee. hope y'all are all having a great day!~

LOVE

ugf

2010-05-18T02:43:00.002+08:00

heyy UGF

no idea if you still read my blog.

BUT... i came across yours just now and read quite a number of posts.

hee. ehh, seems like we've got loads to update each other ya?

meet up soon?

just wanna apologise if i've kinda been mia.

no excuses or whatsoever.

let's just meet up! :) miss you.

UGF :)

i can only SMILE :) cause it's just the way i am

2010-05-18T01:23:00.003+08:00

hey people.

I AM LOVED.

hee. how blessed can anyone get?

my friends are being super sweet and concerned.

& my cg leader is praying for me.

my boyfriend freaking cares for me and showers me with concern.

& i'm nom nom-ing on cold yoghurt noww.

there are so many sweet and beautiful things in life to thank God for.

though there are some bad eggs in the basket, i'm going to be POSITIVE.

that's the way it is. :) focus on the good stuff. ignore the bad.

& all of a sudden, life seems better than ever.

back home from dinner @Joe's place.

hee. had an awesome time dw6-ing after dinner and also guitar jamming with him for abit.

he's such a darling. majorly thank God for him.

he's been such a pillar of strength and support through the tough times, now that things are picking up... he's still holding my hand through all that i go through.

he's really amazing. one in a million, once in a lifetime. :D

hee... couldn't help but satisfy my itchy fingers with photoscaping. :)

yay! one more nice picture to add to our collection. hee.

wanted to create this dreamy effect... like as if i'm in carebear land. heh.

talking about carebears... i saw this kid with the cutest carebear back pack today.

mad cute. if my girls love carebears next time... i probably will use them as an excuse to don my house with plenty of carebears. HEE!

neeways... to you dearest JoeBoy.

congrats on your g-g-g-g-GOLD for your ippt. knew you could do it :)
thank you for being concerned over my medical appointment today.

for making me smile even though i wasn't feeling very good.

for making me feel on top of the world.

for the assurance, and the htht :)

ahh, madly love you lah.

nothing can be better than the person you love, loving you back.

right now... my life feels like it's the way it should be.

not going to be greedy and ask for more.

i'm just going to thank the Lord.

Evie's a happy girl.

all her fears and worries from this morning have been cleared with the cobwebs.

heh. finally understand why God allows bad things to happen.

it's for our good :)

hee. nuff blabberingoos. feeling mad high. but i need my sleep.

let's just hope i don't wake up at some weird hour anymore.

guddnaight world.

heh...

got a blog post to start off tmr already.

but for now. rest well all you little breathing things.

haha!

VEE LOVES YOU! & SO does PAPA God upup and above.

byeeee :)

just a heartwarming video :)

2010-05-17T15:20:00.002+08:00

& this is the reason why, i'm proud to be an early childhood educator.

because children are one of the treasures on this earth.

a treasure... that are each unique, special and innocently honest.

motivation starts with M... so does the word ME :)

2010-05-17T11:55:00.002+08:00

here's some motivational stuffies for the people who need it.

:) and this is indeed one of my secrets to feeling good.

reading these kinds of quotes to encourage myself to feel better :)

hope it helps whoever needs it out there. :)
GOD BLESS~

& here's just a little food for thought :)

The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

- Thomas Merton

close it all in

2010-05-17T11:17:00.003+08:00

i realised i do alot of things for closure.

okay, it's 11am-ish now and i'm back from the hospital.

the doctors ranted practically the same old stuff.

took 3 tubes of my blood and talked even more.

they say that if i don't get a call, then my blood's fine.

well... i hope i don't get a call then.

all this information and facts are getting a tad too much to handle.

personally, i think Evie's never been this strong before.

a few times i really felt like tearing...

but i stopped myself and decided it'd be best for my health if i kept the happy vibes up.

thanks Wesley & Peng for the concerned smses.

it was nice having people who cared.

very very very heartwarming.

this world isn't hopeless.

thanks Papa in heaven, for watching over me and sending me these angels in disguise to care for me.

& thank God too for me dada on earth. for accompanying me to the hospital.

for being by my side so that the waiting time doesn't seem that long.

for just being who he is. so supportive and all.

had a long conver with dad this morning. & just based on what he told me...

it really made me feel like reconsidering blogging.

gosh, i really love blogging. but the harm it's done... sometimes i think it ain't worth it.

maybe i'd just continue my life journal where it's just private for my darlingest friends.

sigh. really dunno already. i madly madly madly love blogging.

feeling really worn out now. 4 hours of sleep, nothing in my tummy and then the hospital trip. mad exhausting. heh... feel like sleeping. IMSUCHAPIG! :p

wonder what JoeBoy is doing now. wonder how he's doing for his ippt.

miss him BIGGIEBIGGIE MUCHMUCH :)
he told me to update him... but i can't tell him all this depressing nonsense now.

but just for wanting me to tell him... thanks love.

do well for ippt kay?

love you MUCHNESS.

see you later ^^

sometimes when crap happens, i question my love for him, then i question his.

then i realise... i really love him, & he really loves me.

& i know i can't let go. because a love like this is one in a million.

Evi

dear...

2010-05-17T06:51:00.002+08:00

okay, i've done what i have to.

was kinda distracted & cause of that i kinda took longer than i expected.

*with fingers crossed* i can only hope that it doesn't like... go down the wrong way?

this feeling is so damn awfully weird.

waking up this early is making me do weird things, go weird places, see things i probably wouldn't have seen if i was a good girl and just carried on with sleep.

am i being affected? who am i kidding. i'm lying if i said no.

but. am i going to let it continue affecting me? nope.

i am obviously psychoing myself now. i'm actually quite surprised that my friends don't think i'm retarded yet... HEE! but it works. i'm going to be positive. no matter what.

kinda excited to meet up with Bestie TMR. going back to my fourth alma mater. hee. graduation ceremony is such a tedious event. so much prep to be done just for that few hours. BUT. it's worth it leh. all those crazy nights of chionging assignment. i kinda miss it man.

thanks dumbo for the very very thoughtful sms. i freaking miss you too. meet up soon ^^

okay gtrun. doc's appointment later. let's hope its all good news.

& crazyboyJ, do well for your IPPT! though i know you won't have a problem getting that gold :p

JIAYOU 'vrybody. :)

byeeeeeeeeee.

it's an awesome monday. say goodbye to monday blues.

p.s - i let myself down.. i ate sharks fin. GUILTY! :(

if i have been in any way offending... i apologise :)

2010-05-17T05:45:00.004+08:00

sometimes i really think i need to be more careful bout what i blog.

and not end up hurting people.

feel like a TOTAL b**** now after reading what i read.

hate it when my words hurt people or make them mad or whatsoever.

MAJORBLAHNESS NOW ^^

so i'm looking at an email draft that i am considering sending.

to clarify? apologise?

it's my trademark to be impulsive.

but it feels like total weirdness to send an email to someone i totally don't know.

why do i get myself into such sticky situations man.

INNYHOOS... stupid body clock woke me up at 0436am!!!

& gosh i slept only at 12ish?

heh... i've decided... to do things the Evie way.

have a great day peepz.

appointment with my surgeon later.

tbh? the op date is approaching unbelievably fast.

yes, and i'm getting kinda cold feet-ish.

but thanks to fish bestie :) & of course Joedear & his mom.

i'm feeling like i've got just the right team of support to cheer me on :)

alright peepole!

gtg set the mistake i've made right.

g'night.

LOVE

p.s - i really really really need MOOLAH!!! lols. so many things i wanna get. ^^

way too early for that little bit of sunshine

2010-05-16T11:46:00.003+08:00

the feeling when you wake up in the morning and realised that the sky is pretty bright already.

you jump off your sofa, reach out for the nearest time telling device and realise.

damn, it's still mad annoyingly early.

for some weird reason, my body clock woke me up at 7.25am today.

yes, on a bee-you-tee-full sunday.

no idea why.

so i went back to sleep for about 2 more hours.

& it's weird cause i USUALLY need at least 7 hours of sleep but i slept near 2 yesterday.

okay, nuff ranting about my sleeping habits or whatsoever.

not like it would bother you guys anyways. haha.

i can actually imagine myself as a third person reading my blog.

"hmm, boring... skip, skip, skip, ooo pictures... read abit... skip skip, okay done."

LOLS! bah.

for some some some reason... recently, my mates around me, their lives have been really complicated.

if it's not this it's that.

& it kinda sucks. i worry for them.

life for me has been a-okay of late.

in fact... things have been picking up kinda well. even i'm surprised myself.

BUT... i just wished life was always thumbs up yummy good for everyone.

neeways, to those going through shit. JIAYOU kayyz?

you guys are mad awesome and will pull through :) i know it.

love all of you very beary muchness.

okay, this is all that really matters to me this SUNDAY morning~

and this is also just yet another blabber bloober bahring of my thoughts.

have an awesome sunday world :)

LOVES~

awesome spells you and i :)

2010-05-16T00:17:00.003+08:00

"love you so much", "be my good baby girl kay?", "love you baby"...

these are some of the things you tell me on perfectly normal days, when we're doing perfectly normal and routine-ish stuff. but you have your way with making normal and routine become special.

been having tummyache of late & you have been the sweetest darling, taking care of me, forcing me to drink lots of water and all. thank you PRECIOUS.

xiexieni^^

a love filled with laugh, & a laugh full of love

2010-05-14T01:25:00.005+08:00

it makes me happy when Joe and I laugh about the stupidest things ever.

what else makes me happy? :)

ice cream! & it's gonna be ice cream day tomorrow @ bugis with WEIHAN, JIAFENG & FISH!

mad mad loves.

okies. neeways... here's a little shoutout to J.O.E ^^

heh. thanks for being patient with me during DW6.

i know i ain't the best gamer in the world.

but i try to be awesome :) hee.

i had a super fun time today though it was just one of our usual nightdates.

but i just never wanna take you for granted :)

so here's a thank you plus some love for you. hee.

mad mad sleepy now...

tummy feeling way better now... as compared to yesterday and this morning. THANK GOD. :)

there's a madly annoying fly making weird sounds in my living room -.- i dislike flies.

love is a LONG LONG journey.

the key to lasting?

is to learn to enjoy every part of the journey & not keep wanting this improvement and that.

when you learn to embrace each step at a time.

things work out naturally.

& you'll just naturally be very happy.

very very happy.

okay world.

nuff of me chittachatta.

nights. i LOVE you boy ^^

Vange

things that make me happy

2010-05-13T14:02:00.002+08:00

good afternoon world, how has your day been so far? :)

mine has been average because i've been feeling sick again.

BUT... i've got things to cheer me up.

rember my previous blog post mentioned a body shop sale?

yes... this mad awesome black velvet apricot body polish is now being sold for 12.90 ONLY!

about 30% off its usual price.

heh... see my lappy in the background? ^^

& guess what came in the mail today~

:) a PINK PACKAGE. OMGosh. the feeling of opening it up... was so fantasticulous.

heh... my clothes from bizmiles finally arrived.

with a free necklace :) so sweet. :)
i soooooo can't wait to put on those dresses.

neeways... facebook is being superly problematic today.

loading super slow. links not func-ing well.

ohh wells. facebook people do something about it.

facebook addict suffering here! :p

i want to go out, go out, go out... but its r-r-r-r-raining.

*heaves a sigh*

rain rain go away. sickness too. bleh.

missing the dumb dumb who didn't pick up his phone.

^^ guess who?

BFN. later~

htht :)

2010-05-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

come come let's htht.

hee.

been having loads of heart to heart talk of late.

feel like i'm REALLY growing up into a mature lady that thinks sensibly and not like a baby...

yes i know it's ironic that in my previous post i just mentioned being like a baby.

no i'm no schizo darlings...

i'm just, trying to make an improvement here.

some friends who know me long enough would be thinking, "ehh, Evie you mummy-ish enough already can."

well, it's really one thing to be motherly and another thing to be mature.

it IS possible.

heh. whatever it is...

though being mature isn't all that fun.

truth is, sometimes you need it to protect yourself.

& also protect the people you love.

okiedooks, on a not so htht note.

i watched ironman2 & it was hmm... 3.5stars?

i still liked the first one better.

but this one had a lot of play with words and stuff.

humour was thumbs up...

i just didn't really like the plot... kinda expected.

& i felt it was kinda unfair to scarlett johanson...

she should have appeared more. more impact la.

Joe's friends are awesome :) & it was nice seeing elias again.

OMGosh, body shop got body polish sale... i went to buy. :) madmadnice!

been rather busy of late. supposed to collect grad gown today but had some screw up.

bleh.

nuff said. happy girl signing off.

byee people~ :)

hush hush little baby

2010-05-12T11:30:00.002+08:00

i can be quite a baby at times

when things go wrong i just like to be cuddled and loved

&thatsme.

but i guess, turning 20 this year doesn't allow me to do that no more

so today, i decided even after some crapshit happened i closed my eyes, took a deep breath

&ismiled.

& then, i prayed and thanked the Lord

for all the moments He has been by my side, i know He will be with me again

&ismiledevenwider.

it felt like He was hugging me

assuring me that everything would turn out fine

&alltheburdensfelloffme.

i didn't need no chocolate, no ice cream, no guitar session with romeo

i didn't need no hugs, lovetexts, handwritten notes of love

i've got the JOYJOYJOYJOY down in my heart

His JOY ^^

Hee. dance with me through the melodies of life.

i'll embrace every melody, every move, every sway.

cause Jesus, you're my dancing partner. :)

VeeheartsJesus.

twinnypotatoGANHUIMIN

2010-05-12T02:29:00.002+08:00

i love you girl

& i really just don't know what to say anymore

you don't deserve any of this crap

hell you don't

but you're one of the strongest, wittiest, smartest, sexiest women i know

& deep inside me honest to God

i know you're going to be just fine

i'm sorry i haven't been one of the bestest twinnies being by your side

but i want you to know

that you're not forgotten

be it in my thoughts, my prayers or on my darling list

you've got your girlfriends &

most importantly

God is on your side

you're going to be just fine

i love you crazy girl

stay strong

cause when all this is over

you're going to smile, and be even stronger and wiser

& i'm sure... happier :)

with love,

the other crazy girl

your potatotwinKOHSHU-MIN

blank

2010-05-12T01:51:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling pretty blank right now.

cause i'm tired and sleepy and i've got work tomorrow.

BLEH!

haha.

i'm slightly moody everytime i get tired.

been flaring up too much at baby recently.

BADBADBAD!

heh.

i'm so not proud of it...

got to work on it.

ahh, NEEWAYS.

today was an awesome day with my boy JOEJOE!

& i had fun laughing about rubbish as we always do.

hee.

boy, i just want you to know, i cherish every single moment with you.

even the bad once... in fact, especially the bad ones.

because they make me appreciate the good times.

& they also bring me closer to you.

seriously? i don't think i can ever walk away from you.

so don't ask me to make a choice anymore.

no matter how big my ego is...

i'll still come back to you.

cause we're meant to be together. forever.

& & & don't doubt my love no more.

i've chosen you okay?

love you muchness. ^^

should i go work tomorrow?

DUH! stop being a lazy bum...

goodnight world.

bbyeeeee. love me. ^^

Van. peace out~

singing a love song to me

2010-05-11T18:09:00.003+08:00

i love spending alone time with me.

making myself feel good.

i truly believe that happiness belongs to the self sufficient.

having someone who loves you may make you happier.

but it definitely doesn't mean that being alone would make you sad.

it shouldn't... it really shouldn't.

& truth is, a person who isn't happy on his/her own...

will never be able to bring happiness to someone else.

neither will they be able to find happiness with someone.

because happiness doesn't work that way.

& to you, i'm not ignoring you because i don't need you.

i still need you around as a friend.

i never want things to turn out like that.

i really looked to you as a brother.

but it's so awkward now.

the things you requested or suggested.

how can i pretend that it meant nothing?

i'm not the kind who looks for people only when i need them.

i just don't know how to talk to you normally without causing further awkwardness.

i really really don't know how to face this situation now.

what do you want me to do?

hide things from my baby?

i'm sorry... i can't.

i don't know if you'll see this.

but i hope that you'd do the right thing.

i'm sorry if i gave you the wrong idea.

i face up to it and apologize.

but i only love one man.

& that's Joe.

g-g-g-good morning

2010-05-11T10:59:00.003+08:00

it's still morning.

11am is morning right?

hee.

i'm up early.

well... earlier than usual :)

i bought korean ramen with JoeBoy yesterday...

so that's what i'm going to have for lunch today.

& guess what??? i received an email today saying that...

MY GOODS ARE ON THE WAY!!!

is this mad awesome or what.

waited like since end of last month...

which isn't very long.

but i'm so easily excited.

i LOVE parcels that come through mail.

so mad awesome. :)

Innyhoos, i've a couple of friends who have been feeling slightly teeny weeny down of late.

sorry little miss Evie hasn't really been there to give you darlings personalized hugs and shower you with lovelove. But here's a few peekchures that i hope will make your day :)

if you don't already know, i am very much an "eat potato" kind of person.

aka, english ed.

so i get tickled easily at bad english. (well i get tickled easily at many other things too... but especially for bad english)

it makes my hair stand when i hear things like these:

"my loves for you are very strong."

"stop giving me that shits" (shit = uncountable. and the only time to use shits is when you are saying "he has had the shits for three days") when you are referring to bullshit/nonsense/bad stuff it should be shit. not shits.

okay, enough talk about big business.

here are the pictures :)

so... what does the very suspicious supermarket sell? :)

READ IT!!! hahahaha.

haha! do i have to say more? =p

hilarious.

bleh i'm mad excited about my PACKAGE!

thank you for reading yet another random blogpost about Evie's crazy life.

your time is greatly appreciated.

we hope that this blog has brought you much smiles and inspiration.

LOvES~

the crazay girl.

you and i

2010-05-11T01:28:00.002+08:00

baby we ain't no childhood lovers.

we ain't no childhood bestfriends.

but you and i had a deep connection.

like a little seed waiting to be grown.

it was a great 99 sugar.

& a wonderful 100.

but beyond these special days...

i want you to know...

everyday with you,

is a blessing to me.

one i cherish.

& one i'll always thank Daddy God for.

not afraid.

cause i'm doing it right.

this love is so amazing.

Eva.

99

2010-05-10T03:17:00.003+08:00

i remember how i burst out laughing after seeing you do the actions to the song 99 green bottles.

i probably laughed nonstop for a good 20minutes after that.

:) u make me smile.

99, 九九, 久久, forever.

once upon a time, there lived a prince and a princess.

they were friends. normal friends who weren't very close.

they both grew up and loads of things happened :).

but then... they found each other after 7 years of being apart.

and here they are, living a life of love.

no doubt, it ain't no fairytale, especially both of them like to keep things real.

and especially both the prince and a princess are really stubborn by nature.

but the love was real, so was the connection.

no matter how many screw ups, or breakdowns... they stayed together.

because they loved each other.

& there wasn't an end to their story... because there ain't no such thing as a happy ending.

happiness, doesn't have an ending... it just goes on and on and on...

like you and i baby... you and i ^^

& with you in my life... i see an awesomely bright future ahead of me.

AWWW... so sweet right?

i love you too Joe. ^^

okayy its lateeeee.

guddnaightwurrrlllddd.

heh.

MUACKSES FROM THE HAPPY GIRL ^^

you say that i'm being naive... i say that i'm being a firm believer in my boyfriend and in love.

if everyone just saw the bad in everything and not the good... i'm pretty sure this world would be doomed.

whatever the weather you can stand under my umbrella

2010-05-10T01:37:00.004+08:00

aloha changi is an awesome place to feed cats, feel ulu-ated and imagine the presence of zombies/ghost.

superly happy i had the chance to spend time chilling with fish bestie @ the chalet...

innyhoos. it's mommy's day today.

wishing her up up above in heaven an awesome mommy's day.

though she's not physically here, she's still a major part of my life and i thank her for all the things she's done for me. :)

had dinner with JoeBoy's family today...

:) & sweet Jerrica fell asleep on my shoulder on the way back.

really love his family. :)

happy mommy's day to all mommies in his family. :D

Justin Bieber's song eenie meenie is playing on my blog background now...

heh. one of my not so fave songs of his. but it somehow gives me the sleepy vibes. LOL!

Neeways... today, i fought an internal battle again.

it's kinda similar to the ones i've been having recently.

BUT! praise the LORD... i think my exp points in fighting this same battle has increased...

so it's all getting better.

i'm more on the offensive side than the defensive side now.

i guess this is life for you.

throws you a basket full of lemons and unless you learn to make good lemonade outta them...

you'd be tolerating with the massive sour torture in your life.

it's not easy... but if everything is easy, life would be so BORING.

whatever the case, i must thank God for Joe who has been helping me out a little here and there by just being a good boyfriend.

heh...

i must learn how to be a better girlfriend.

not that i'm not a good one... but i just want to make sure he's got the best he deserves.

& i teared when he said those sweet things today.

no, it wasn't an utterly romantic quote or chim poem.

it was just simple truth from his heart.

it gave me a silent strength to fight that internal war.

the courage to look in the mirror and tell myself to trust.

to pray... and thank the Lord... for being beside me, for being beside US, for being the pillar in our relationship.

Joeboy... i just wanna let you know...

you're awesome...

imperfect. but mad mad awesome.

get well soon love. ^^

like a little bit crazy

2010-05-08T21:46:00.004+08:00

hello people,

i'm feeling slightly hyped and crazy :)

ohhemmgee this peekchure was taken so long ago.

heh... i miss the crazy times...

i'll make sure i have some tonight. :p

ch-ch-ch-ch-chalet :)

Vee

mind power

2010-05-08T19:55:00.002+08:00

"it's all in the mind"

how far would you agree with this statement? :)

the bible said: as a man thinks of himself so is he.

gandhi said: a man is but a product of his thoughts, what he thinks he becomes.

buddha said: All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become.

james allen, norman vincent peale, they came up with great quotes about how powerful one's mind is.

today's blogpost... will be on the truth behind the power of the mind.

i hate to admit this... but many-a-times, to my disadvantage... i am a really emotional person.

from reading a moving story i can tear. watching jay chou's movie, "secret"... made me cry for about an hour even after leaving the theater. friends cry, i feel like crying with them. watching my sister perform solo, also makes me tear tears of joy...

yes i am emotional. and emotional people tend to live based on emotions... and not sense.

too many times, i've made rash, impulsive and obviously BAD decisions. because i don't stop to think. even if i do, it's my heart putting the thoughts in my head.

recently, something major happened. to me. directly.

i was left on my own for about 5 to 6 hours to make a decision.

there were tears, phonecalls made, smses sent, but nothing really helped till i calmed down and thought to myself.

i usually would never do that. being emotional, i'd just live for the moment. decide when it happens.

decide based on how i feel.

but this time, it mattered too much to really just decide based on my emotions.

it was a wake up call, a strange experience, but one that changed me...

thoughts are really amazingly powerful.

think negative, negative happens.

think positive, positive happens.

i'm not saying that if you think that if you don't do anything and just think positive magic happens.

but it ties in with actions and faith.

it also ties in with patience and STAYING positive.

i mean, as a human, i know it's really impossible to entirely eliminate the bad thoughts we have.

its a normal thing for humans to fear, a normal thing for humans to be sad... and the list goes on.

and all these negative emotions naturally bring bad thoughts to your head.

what if this happens, what if that happens.

so it is NOT about not thinking negative... but instead trying to keep yourself positive and try to see the bright side in every situation.

plan for the worse and expect the best.

its okay to feel that things might not work out. but still put in your very best to make things work out.

that is the key. and as you put in your best, believe in yourself that whatever you are doing is for the greater good. have faith, and just give it your all...

most of the time. things will end up better than you expected it to.

BUT even if it doesn't this is where thoughts come in again.

a positive person who thinks good thoughts constantly will not fail to see the good side even in a failure.

i never believed in the phrase, "it's all in the mind"

but after that life changing moment... i now do.

hence this little blog post to shoutout to everyone to lets be thoughtful people who think about the good stuff and focus on the positive... it would make the world a better place :)

i shall end of with a quote by i don't know who...

but i think it's awesome... :)

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.

your destiny begins from your thoughts... that's how powerful your mind is.

use it... to YOUR benefit :)

LOVELOVELOVE~

so painful

2010-05-07T01:05:00.002+08:00

never knew... pain like this.

rewind replay///

can't recognize... that girl in the mirror no more.

tear-stained face///

i'd do everything and anything.

to make it different///

the difference

2010-05-06T14:37:00.002+08:00

there's a difference when you pray and do your best as compared to just giving your best without prayer. :)

today i learned that sometimes you can give your bestest... but still get nowhere... in fact, things seem to worsen.

but when you pray and give your best. sometimes before you even give 100%, things start to improve and change.

such a simple truth. but so powerful if you apply it in your life.

i'm falling head over heels with Romeo & how he embraces me through all the difficult moments in life. Love how he reminds me to worship & pray. it's a good thing i invested in him... the 200bucks? mad worth it man...

NEEWAYS... i don't know what to wear for graduation dinner. :( probably wear the same pair of heels... but i wanna wear a simpler dress. LOL. ^^

girls who are going too... tell me what you're going to wear!!! kkz?

Vee

my favourite pink crayon

2010-05-06T04:11:00.003+08:00

little princess took her favourite pink crayon and drew a smiley face on the wall

it was scribbly and not even half near perfection

so she drew yet another

with each smiley face she drew, the happier she felt

the happier the smiley faces looked

when big brother came and ask her, why are you ruining my plain white wall?

she frowned and said, "you're too afraid of changes, what's so nice about a white wall? you just want everything to be plain and normal. but you don't know what's beyond plain and normal because you never dare to try. i'm crazy, spontaneous and eccentric. but i'm happy. because i try... & also because, i try repeatedly, using my best."

I have been guilty being the big brother.

i want normal, plain. mediocre. don't want changes... just let me be comfy.

leaving me upset, toss and turned, frussed, emotional... down and out.

tonight, to remind myself, i drew a smiley face in my diary.

little princess little princess where have you been?

happiness isn't kept by trying to lock it down with several locks in the position you found it.

i'm so afraid of losing my happiness, i locked them all up, and they turned into unhappiness.

i unlocked my box today...

i've been so afraid to lose, i forgot to love.

happiness needs to be shared to grow...

& i'll share them far and wide.

not just so that i can be happy...

but so that. the people around me will be happy too.

Vee

& i thank God... that above everything else... i still have a man in my life who cares about me.

Thank You Joe.

like a memory you wish to forget

2010-05-06T04:05:00.002+08:00

i need to stop this.

i'm getting cold feet.

i need to talk to someone.

but i refuse to.

i need to rise up to the occasion.

and just be myself.

i need some reassurance.

but i ain't getting nowhere.

i need God to deliver me from the fear.

& all the other negative emotions i'm feeling.

i need sometime to heal.

God please come and heal me.

good afternoon

2010-05-05T13:50:00.002+08:00

i'm blogging because i'm all frussed.

heh. love me love me say that you love me.

i'm needing some loving.

blah... life feels strangely shittified for now.

i really hope things get better.

smile Vee smile.

& to dearest friends whom i was supposed to go chill with.

DUI BU QI! really zero mood to go out.

heh... but let's meet up soon kay? when i'm not so moodilicious...

it's just not me to want to let my friends see my moodilicious self.

love y'all.

what's wrong with the world now?

let's keep it simple people.

i ain't gonna hate.

i just wanna love love love love love.

ohh & know what? :)

i'm little cheerbear's disciple...

i watched my carebear DVD again. :)

nothing cheers me up faster than a carebear MOVIE!

sleepless

2010-05-05T03:15:00.002+08:00

i lay awake on my super uncomfy sofa...

funny how it gives me a different kind of comfort now...

a part of it soggy with my tears...

i try to say an honest prayer...

but before i could finish a sentence...

more tears...

right now... i can only be grateful for a dear friend the Lord has sent to watch over me...

even at a crazy hour like this... when he can be sleeping...

i'm so worn out...

but my body refuses to sleep...

kept awake by the crazy load of pain surging through my veins...

argh, whatever Vee, stop being so chim & emotional...

you just need to gather up your strength...

and smile...

you'll be okay...

by His grace...

i'll be okay...

Amen.

what the... yea, you know what i wanted to say

2010-05-05T02:21:00.002+08:00

BULLSHIT.

such an APT word to describe the situation i'm in now.

SICK & TIRED.

such an APT word to describe how i feel.

i really want to rant all that i feel right now here.

but i can't.

respect is one thing...

protecting is another...

am i breaking on the inside?

yes.

definitely.

how long more till i officially lose it?

i don't know.

i really don't know no more.

somebody call 911.sos.

give me a jug of hard liquor.

get me drunk. mess me up.

make me forget.

Vee

ain't got a way to dealwithit like i used to.

ain't no way to smileitaway like i used to.

cause i'm playing with the bigboys now.

overworkedoverhurtunderappreciated.

now i'm left messup-ed as THEbiggestmessup-ed could be.

when nothing beats... a little time out

2010-05-05T02:02:00.002+08:00

yes. i'mhavingalittletimeoutnow.

huh?

I AM HAVING A LITTLE TIME OUT NOW.

geddit?

sorry if i'm ignoring anyone's calls or whatsoevers.

Evie's having a little timeout.

no i'm not talking about the chocolate...

but yes, i am talking about some time on her own.

i've been really tired of late.

not physically. but mentally and emotionally.

well, i know i'm probably not the only one...

but in my world... being worn out and overworked? IT IS BAD.

i'm just not the kinda girl who likes to feel down and out.

so that explains timeout.

INNYHOOS... i'm thinking of starting a blog...

a simple one where i record the many blessings big or small God has blessed me.

neeways, i gtg...

byee world...

someone cheer me up please... bleh.

lunch

2010-05-04T15:22:00.002+08:00

YO~ i like my new blog format.

yayness.

let's clap for evie's brilliantness...

of course... it's not completed yet...

still got few pictures to change.

heh. but now its compatible in both IE & ChROmE~

didn't try firefox... so too bad if you're using firefox and it looks screwed up!

don't come and nag me... so hard to sync all these web browsers.

haha. JOKES!~

may check it out on firefox sometime soon... if i have the time...

ANYWAY! today's post is about lunch...

today for lunch i wanted to eat maggimee.

BUT NO MAGGIMEE!

so i ate healthy healthy... 2 plums.

& erm... a bowl of cornflakes.

BUT i like cornflakes with chocolate milk... & my house only got white milk...

so i ate cornflakes with white milk... & MILO POWDER!

LOLness.

i know. it's funny.

it tasted weird too. heh.

plus it looked kinda gross... so no pictures for you. you might puke.

bleh... i'm not hungry anymore but i'm having a tummyache... maybe milo & milk is a bad idea. hee.

i'm bored. byeeee.

s.o.s

2010-05-02T02:45:00.002+08:00

the Evie who always knew what to do...

doesn't know what to do anymore...

don't ask me what happened...

i don't know...

don't ask me what i intend to do...

i don't know...

don't ask me anything...

i won't tell...

but a girl has got to do what she has got to do...

don't tell me what's right, what's wrong...

just let me be happy...

i just want to be happy...

bye world. bye.

cause i'm tired of painting on a smile, pretending that i'm okay.

Lord i'm sorry for letting You down. giving in to my emotions. being weak.

i know i give in to my emotions too much.

but as i surrender once more... please come and touch me once again.

because only You Jesus... should be the reason for my every breath.

1stMay

2010-05-01T12:15:00.003+08:00

i woke up elevenish today...

& was alone at home.

i was so tired out by yesterday that i didn't here my family leaving home.

but that was okay because... :)

it's the first of a new month.

do you know that 12pm every 1st day of the month church bells would ring?

it rang today... just minutes after i woke up...

it reminded me... of LOVE.

we talked about the past... & some of it did hurt.

but it wasn't the intention. we both knew.

i reminded you of those dates... we joked and made fun of them...

i was so glad. so glad the past is over.

& we're living in the present, God's gift to us...

but at the same time, i'm sure that the past did happen for a reason.

it was a tad uncomfy, but i still love your bike. more than any other bikes in the world. :)

you should know why :)

to the crazy boy who wakes me up from my nightmares so that i can have sweet dreams.

to the obnoxious idiot who sometimes really really annoy me with your stupid zombie sounds.

to the sweetheart who does whatever he can to be around me.

to the dumbdumb who tends to say the wrong things at the wrong time.

to the ego monster who doesn't want to say how he truly feels at times.

to Joseph Sng Wen Jian.

you've been a part of my childhood.

a part of my teens.

let's be a part of each other's forever.

thank YOU. :) for loving me.

happy three.

3 = you + me + forever.

Vee

c-c-c-c-CAREBEAR family :)

2010-04-30T12:57:00.005+08:00

hello world!!!

here's a little crazy post i just had to do.

because i'm so awesomely proud of my carebear family :)

BUT... the pictures were taken by my lousy 3.2 megapixels phone camera...

so please forgive me for the foggy crappy pictures.

other than that... enjoy~

& so... the story begins...

First of all, let me introduce to you my favouritest of all favouritest carebears...

CHEERBEAR! yes, the one with the rainbow :)

Cheer Bear (one of the originals) is a very happy and perky bear, who helps everyone be their happiest and cheer up those who are unhappy. She is pink with a rainbow as her tummy symbol. - as cited from wikipedia :)

& i believe i do have CheerBear's personality :)

carebear on the left sure looks old huh?

that's because she IS OLD!

she was my first carebear. :)

the one on the right was from my beloved Bo2 darlings.

no idea how they knew that this was my favourite bear... but yea :)

These 2 sweethearts are from BABYJOE!

left to right - Sweet Dreams Bear (2006) helps everyone have the happiest of dreams and wake up on the right side of the bed every morning. She is deep violet and her tummy symbol is a pink sleeping crescent moon on a cloud with hearts in the background. *dearie bought this for me cause he knew i was having bad dreams*

&& Heartsong Bear (2006) loves music and singing. She is sky blue and her tummy symbol is a rainbow-colored musical note surrounded by different colored hearts. *this has become my second favourite :) cause i really LOVE music*

NEXT UP!!!

my biggest carebear. how big?

this is a picture of his head in comparison to mine. (yes it is a he)

anyway... this is Tenderheart Bear (also one of the originals) he helps everyone show and express their feelings and helps his fellow Care Bears be the most caring they can be.

this darling was from my JL colleagues love them loads.. how they surprised me on my birthday :)

& here's PERFECT PANDA! believe it or not...

it's the first carebear i bought for myself. :)

because i believe that carebears are only special when you buy them on special moments or when others buy them for you to show you that they care.

latest edition to the family :)

Perfect & Polite Panda look after Paradise up above the skies of Care-a-Lot. They always spoke in rhyme, finishing each other's sentences and complimenting one another's feelings. They only appeared in one episode of the first TV series, The Care Bears, "The Long Lost Care Bears". Perfect has a gold star with a ribbon on his tummy, while Polite Panda has a pink rose with a ribbon on her tummy. In the 2000s adaption, Polite Panda is patched with purple and white. *haven't bought perfect panda's twin polite panda yet*

This one is LOVE-ALOT BEAR!

credits to Jace who thought this was my favourite... but nevertheless, still biggie thanks :)

Love-a-Lot Bear is a bear who helps spread love and help it along wherever she goes. She is pink and her tummy symbol is two intertwined hearts with yellow and pink outlines. *she too is an original*

This is the head... of cheerbear. HEE! from JL colleagues too. they got it at the arcade for me.

SWEETNOT? :)

another one from Jace... a pillow with love alot bear on it...

he got it wrong TWICE! LOL!

that's all for my carebear family. but since i'm at this... i'm gonna introduce you some of my other sweethearts :)

BABYPOOH! yes i am a babypooh fan too :)

& here's my first build a bear from TYA comm.

she has a beating heart you know? :)

so cute man.

hahaha

okay... that's all for my plushiefull post.

time for my lunch~

BB WORLD!~

Vee

understand comprehend love

2010-04-30T01:01:00.004+08:00

hello world i've got a question.

do you need to be able to understand and comprehend someone before being able to truly love that person?

dang it.

my head is spinning right round right round. not literally.

i think i'm stupid crazy and out of my mind.

maybe Joe is right... maybe i don't even know my thoughts myself.

shoots.

argh whatever. in Evie's world. her theory is to keep it simple.

:) so to keep things simple. i clarify first horr...

my and Joe are a-okay :) it's just me thinking too much and thinking too much.

yes i know i typed it twice. that's precisely the point.

i think alot but i try to keep things simple.

oxymoron? well. true simplicity can only be found in the midst of sophistication and complications.

listening to Miranda Cosgrove's Kissing You.

mad awesome song.

okay///no more emo thoughts and what not.

let's call it a day :) perfect panda carebear is sitting on my shoulder now.

how cute right?

here's something i found even cuter...

hee. this is what it means to LITERALLY be growing up too fast. :D

forgot where i found this picture already.

but i thought it was so cute.

but let this picture remind us of a few things yea? :)

1. babies are never too young to learn

2. just as we should always have a child in us... babies have a certain simplicity in them that we can learn from too

3. babies are learning from YOU! :))

you must be thinking Vee ar... one simple picture you think until like that...

see? told you i think too much think too much.

haha.

let me sign off with some pictures of my darling perfect panda.

the latest edition to my carebear family

my new sleeping companion.

poor perfect panda. no matter how long he sleeps.

his eyebags won't go away.

but it's okay. he's perfect enough for me :)

& this is me. just woken up... with my lovely huggable love love :)

he is kinda small as compared to my humongous tenderheart bear.

but when he combines forces with me... it's me and him against... erm... mosquitoes :)

hee. just kidding. he helps me get over my bad dreams with sweet dreams bear.

omg. i'm so going to a carebear family post soon ^^

but meanwhile...

goodnight people...

before you go...

CHECK IT OUT YO~

boo!

hahahahaha! i love you!

Vee

scolded

2010-04-29T16:07:00.003+08:00

Joe Dear scolded me today... :( okay la. not really scold la. 讲一下而已啦。

hee. but it was a valid.

gosh i've turned so lazy ever since i finished poly education.

GOD! spirit of excellence please? :)

i remember being super diligent during those days of studying.

arhh... guilty guilty.

need to reshuffle my priorities.

gosh, i'm only 19 leh. cannot be so 懒惰。

behaving like old woman... keep falling sick.

& not being useful to the society.

so i went online and searched for some stuff...

which i don't wanna announce here because it would totally defeat the purpose.

but let's just say i'm making my life useful.

enough procrastination.

:) taking life step by step.

started with working on my life...

now that it's getting better...

i'm moving on to other stuffies.

i'm excited!~ :)

will keep all of you updated :)

especially dearies that i love.

Vee

p.s - sorry for the super random post... needed to type this out so everytime i visit my blog i will be reminded to JIAYOU!~ :)

heh. byeee.

because love is more than just a game for 2

2010-04-29T01:09:00.002+08:00

just read a darling's blog.

a darling who's so darling reading his blog made me cry.

emotions so genuine. words so heartfelt and true.

i couldn't hold back my tears.

thankfully, Joe called me.

& though he couldn't tell that i had cried.

he cheered me up.

he always does.

no matter what happens.

he always tickles me with his "revelations" and what not.

gosh i miss him already.

when i'm with him, time passes so mad fast.

probably the two of us are like stuck in our crazy worlds.

today was an a-okay day. not awesome. but nevertheless, i still thank God.

it was nice bumping into chia ling @kembangan.

i miss chilling with my friends. though i only had a short chat with her... it made me miss her & B02 clique even more.

went to visit little Jerrica at the hospital :)

she's so awesomely strong and i love her loads.

being around Joe & family is becoming less awkward.

i especially love his Mom & his Popo. :)

hee, it's nice how the puzzle pieces of my life are fitting nicely together.

i thank God.

though there are areas my heart yearns for a little more.

i have to learn to put my faith in Him & His desires for me... not my own.

Neeways, i'm feeling balloon-ish.

I miss having helium balloons. :)
the last time i had em... was on my 18th birthday.

helium balloons are mad awesome.

in fact sometimes i feel like one. bobbing in controlled freedom.

swaying with the wind. okay. i think what i said didn't really make much sense.

pardon me. it's almost 2am. i'm tired.

more helium balloons. bleh.

just found this picture really pretty.

I WANT HELIUM BALLOONS!!!

how i wish i had helium breath. HAHAHA!

okay, on second thought, no thanks. unless i want to sound like the chipmunks. :D

BUT besides all the hype & craziness that i have within my body.

what really matters to me this Thursday morning. is a little message i want to share.

when 2 people fall in love.

many things can happen.

many being good, many being bad too.

some leading to happiness, and the other, leading to pain.

but whatever the case.

what is love really?

of late, someone proved to me, what it really meant to love someone.

to him... it was letting go. because he decided... it wasn't meant to be.

another someone told me, i love her. i'm not going to give up.

is that love? yes. definitely.

& then someone else said. i love her... but i love myself more.

i deserve better. & so i'm gonna wait no more. that too is love isn't it?

what i'm really trying to say here people... is that love varies.

from person to person. situation to situation.

we can't judge love. we can't measure it.

love isn't a game. no... it's not trial and error.

it's commitment. perseverance. patience. understanding. hope. strength. courage. support.

the list can go on endlessly.

love can be so difficult to understand. so hard to comprehend...

but let me make things simple for you tonight.

in Evie's theory.

LOVE = LOVE

were you expecting some formula or chiminology?

sorry. there's none.

love is something made out of a balance of good and bad times. happy and sad times.

Love isn't a rainbow. neither is it a knife.

if you love someone and you have issues? WORK IT OUT.

if you don't love the person enough to want to work it out.

then don't.

simple as that.

I'm sorry if it came out harsh. take it as a little wake up call.

because fact is. too many people are ruining the name of love.

O.K.A.Y i am tired.

& i've said enough.

but before i go, i just wanna say a big thank you to the one who loves me loads.

who makes sure i eat enough nutritious food.

who makes sure i drink enough water.

who makes sure i sleep.

who makes sure i take care.

who makes sure i'm feeling okay.

who is super sensitive to my body temperature & always checking if i'm burning a fever.

who does things for my sake.

who reminds me love is not all dead yet.

baby. if love is a battlefield, with you on my team. we are always gonna win.

the whole world can burn in flames and slowly turn to ashes.

but not you and i.

baby, we ain't gonna let our love destroy.

okay, lighten up peepz. don't feel so heavy hearted after reading my blog.

he says... are you a good girl?

& i replied... i will be :) for your sake... i will be.

& i'm dancing in the moonlight cause the moon is freaking beautiful tonight.

nights world.

Evie.

fresh wounds

2010-04-28T09:10:00.002+08:00

feeling a lil screwed up-ish today.

well, let's just thank God that in this whole crazy affair, not much tears were involved.

but my heart sure aches though.

then why do what you did?

because, i don't want the new things to repeatedly come up and slice me in.

let it cut me all over now while i am mentally prepared and strong.

it's complicated actually/because now that i've gotten things moving,

i question myself if this is what i really want.

is this right? gosh. Vee you can be really hopeless at times.

chill babe chill

bleh. enough emotional talk.

life is really feeling kinda draggy for now.

well, thank God that i can really get back to work tomorrow.

& PRAISE GOD that my throat has started getting way way better...

which means :) :) :)

i might not need to take the second round of anti biotics.

anyway, i just listened to Miranda's Cosgrove new album on youtube.

so disappointing. most of the songs are about break ups and boys letting you down.

probably went through a break up or something.

everybody's breaking up, but you hold me so close to you.

gosh... i'm feeling so aimless on this blog post.

i miss my BOY loads.

okay peepz... check you crazies out later. byee~ :)

VEE

supper is LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

2010-04-27T00:55:00.004+08:00

hello world!

i was in one of the lowest moods ever.

darling sent me home, told me to cheer up.

he was such a sweetheart. being so sensitive to my feelings.

i was dazey-fied and mad annoying.

but he held my hand most of the car ride. & helped me to talk about my feelings.

:D you must be thinking... "Evie, you have such an awesome boyfriend"

yes i agree... :)

but it was one of those moments that i had to pull myself out of MYSELF.

don't know if you guys have experienced that before.

so i waved goodbye to him at the window... watched him drive off.

& i felt so miserable. & ALONE.

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i am so proud of myself. because at that point... i told myself.

No it's not some boyfriend attention i need... it's God.

i said a really quick prayer. & it worked within minutes.

i intentionally did things that would cheer me up...

like making myself some supper. :)

i thank God, that He helped me forget my pain in the midst of cooking.

i thank God, that He made me stronger, above my troubles. :)

i think i'm easily amused. & easily cheered up :)

my supper would probably be evidence of that...

i was playing with my food :D

whats that? guess guess~

clearer? :D

it's yummy goldhill instant mashies ^^

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& there was yummy sweet korean strawberries in the fridgey...

Thank God that Daddy bought them...

they helped me cheer up too.

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Anyway, while having supper...

my mind was constantly on a few people... (who's names will be mentioned soon)

this post is for you.

I myself went through an emotional day today.

but God was by my side.

I hope that you too will find your strength in Him.

J is for Jesus.

thank You dear Lord. for watching over me. for being the Father over my life. for the discipline & the showering of care & protection. I love U.

J is for Joseph.

Joseph Sng. yes, almost every blog post i talk a little about you.

i can't help it precious. you said many times... you think that you're the best boyfriend ever.

most of the time i would scrunch up my face and show you a look of "OMG why are you so thick skin"

no, you may not be perfect... but you are indeed the best. because, you are God sent & God would only send me the best for me. :)

J is also for Jerrica.

girl, you are so fantastically brave.

get well soon alright? :)

i'm praying for you~

J is also for Jiafeng.

dearest ahboy, i know you hardly read my blog.

but i want you to know, that i am proud of you and how determined you are.

stay strong no matter what. i'll be here for you. i promise :)

J is for JiQing & Josephine.

i miss you two girls. :) hope to "bump" into the both of you in USS soon yea? love love~

J is ALSO FOR... JIEJIE!

omg, i hardly call you that. but thanks for spending time with me over supper. :)

it's always nice to have an older sibling talk with you about anything.

hee. even if it's scolding you for wasting energy and forgetting to off the oven.

you're someone i look up to LISAKOH! :)

J is last but not the least for Jenerally EVERYONE whom i love :)

Yes... ALL of you are loved. & you will NEVER be alone :)

so....

KEEP SMILING PEOPLE~

hee. how was the kidney beans art? :)

i like the new songs added to my blog.

esp kissing you by miranda cosgrove

& hey soul sister by train. :)

okiedooks.

once again thanks daddy God...

for being there to wrap Your arms around me...

goodnight people!~

love love love ^^

happyVEE

note to self

2010-04-26T02:14:00.004+08:00

girl, sometimes i don't understand you

you claim to be a bundle of joy

but seriously?

look at you, guilty over things you've not done

sleepless over pain you never caused

her suffering isn't yours

so why bring it upon yourself

look in the mirror girl~

don't you have enough to smile about

your life is a miracle, a blessing, a gift from above

& here you are wasting it away worrying for what she brought upon herself

it isn't your fault baby girl...never your fault

he doesn't blame you

so why blame yourself

why blame yourself

i am a confident, strong, happy woman of God.

who lives her life as close as possible to the word of God.

i have no need to feel regret or pain over what someone else caused.

i am not going to let someone else's life bother me.

i have the right to be happy because God wants me to.

i can't make someone happy by being upset and over worrying for that person.

gosh... i really don't understand myself at times :/

soft heartedness? that can be simply being weak sometimes you know...

gosh, i have a really long day tmr.

i need... to sleep.

GOODNIGHT WORLD!~

on a side note...

i'm grateful i met up with you those nights...

even though i was dreadfully tired from school. :)

if i hadn't... :) i wouldn't have found you.

wouldn't have.

from schoolmates to church friends

church friends to strangers

strangers to acquaintance

acquaintance to friends

friends to good friends

good friends to soul mates

soul mates to FOREVER :).

today you told me, you loved me way before i thought you did...

it frightened me abit. :)

but beyond the shock... the good shock obviously...

i felt such a happy feeling. :)

i'm glad we told each other how we felt. super glad.

& on another side note.

to my darlingestest bestie whom i'm mtg after work tomorrow~

i am so excited to meet you...

MISS YOU LOADS!!~

& if you can't sleep... and you're reading this...

please try to sleep alright? :)

i love you ^^

xoxo.

peace that surpasses all understanding

2010-04-26T01:37:00.002+08:00

in life... many times we cross bridges and paths that we just don't really know why we are there.

okay, pardon the terrible english for the first sentence.

i'm kinda tired.

today was an awesome day... spent it pretty much doing very mild stuff so that i can recover fast.

work starts tomorrow. and my m.c doesn't cover me till then...

so yuppsies. i'm gonna keep this blog post short.

Neeways, what i was trying to say is that, some times we come across situations where we just don't know what to do anymore.

it could be because logic tells us to do one thing and your heart tells you to do another.

everything just doesn't make sense.

everything makes sense but its just so damn painful to do whats right.

before i continue i just want to clarify that this has got nothing to do with BABYJOE.

my darlingest shrekymonster, who has been an awesome confidant of late.

thank you dearie.

back to what i was saying... yea, it's those moments in life... that we really need our friends to stick by us and all.

so if any of you know a friend who is going through moments of which they are stuck confused and have no idea what to do.

just be there for them...

& if you are one of those going through that terrible moment...

i just want to say, BE STRONG :)

i know its going to hurt, its not going to be easy.

i'm not asking you to pretend that you're okay.

NO!

it's perfectly human to cry, to feel down, but get back up okay?

I LOVE YOU :)

yes. you know who you are.

i'm not the one in your position so i really don't know how terrible it feels.

but i will be here for you.

i want you to know that :)

and no matter what happens... no matter what decisions are made.

you know that Evie will be here to pray for you, talk to you, listen to you. & just be your friend.

JIAYOU~

& dearest Daddy God...

i pray that you'd cover that very special someone who means alot to me with a peace that surpasses all understanding.

protect that person with Your love and watch over him/her.

guide that person with Your divine strength and wisdom.

make sure that he/she is going to be okay.

amen.

goodnight world.

haha so much for making this a short blogpost...

alrightey peeps... goodnights~

& to JOEBOY...

:) thank you for always being so understanding. you're... irreplaceable.

heart you... very much :)

throataches :(

2010-04-25T01:23:00.003+08:00

hello world.

poor me. i am having the terriblestest sore throat ever.

thanks to myself for doing a "great" job on taking care of myself (yes i am being sarcastic).

now i have a viral infection.

& i'm on anti biotics.

which i tell you... is not funny.

you have to remember to eat your medicine. (thank God they don't taste that bad.)

BUT, they give you bad tummy churnings which lead to gastric.

some clauvalanic acid in the medicine.

:( mad painful!

plus, you feel dizzy, and your tummy makes you feel like vomiting, shitting and farting all at the same time.

yes, you can say yucks.

so NEEWAYS...

i went online and googled viral infections.

my immediate reaction?

haha, why not you go try it out? and click on image search yea?

you'd probably understand why... at 1am, on a sunday, i silently cursed and swore.

here's a little warning.

that what you are about to see is not for the faint hearted.

ta-dah. here's the very first picture that caught my eye.

nice?

i was thanking God that my throat no matter how painful, isn't that bad...

& seriously? i semi think that this picture is photo editted.

how can anyone's throat become like that?

GROSS.

next up...

this looks more real...

but still yucksness.

but yea... basically my tonsils are the swollen babies who are killing me right now.

eating cold yoghurt is HEAVEN to me.

hee.

INNYHOOS~~ thanks to the dearies who have been calling me up, smsing me, twittering me... to get well soon and to take care.

awww... you darlings are the bestest.

of course. not to forget darling Joe who has been taking super good care of me even though he himself isn't feeling too good.

think it may be the weather. it's virus breeding weather. LOL.

okay people...

if you are sick... here's a little something to cheer you up yea?~

nice?

plus it has been gloomy and raining of late.

so here's a little sunshine for all of you.

how apt right? :)

I'm such a genius :) don't have to agree. i will be super shy. (joking :))

if you are well :)

please do continue to take care and drink plenty of water.

eat fruit and veggies. they are good for you ^^

LOVE Y'ALL!

p.s - MAN UTD IS BACK ON TOP! whoever said they weren't going to be champions this year. :p

byeee

smiles nobody sees

2010-04-24T03:37:00.002+08:00

moments with my dearest, are some of the craziest moments of my life.

thanks to one of the craziest people i've ever known.

don't be tricked by his fierce strict look, he's quite THE joker.

he's my bestfriend, my confidant, my JOEBOY~

i was just praying for abit just now...

& my thoughts wandered off to you again love.

everybody has got their stories.

but i like ours the best. :)

though it all happened in a blur... i'm mad glad that it did :)

& you know what love?

the best part about loving you, is you :)

it still feels like yesterday... when you looked me in the eye and asked me with such sincerity to be your girl.

it still feels like yesterday... when you told me you love me for the very first time.

& i honestly felt, like i couldn't breathe.

i still feel that way when you tell me you love me.

tingly bubbly and so happy.

God must really love me... to bless me with you.

ahahaha, enough cheesynoosey.

i shall really go and sleep now.

ahh, i miss you JOEBOY!

sick to my pits.

2010-04-24T02:33:00.004+08:00

so... i finally got myself checked out at the clinic today...

& guess what?

VIRAL INFECTION. again.

whao. but praise God in all situations even with a terribly swollen throat.

& the doctor explained that the virus has caused my throat to swell.

& that pus has formed on my throat walls.

she also said that the virus has attacked my stomach causing me to vomit or feel like vomiting.

headaches and all? also caused by the virus.

it's my body's way of telling me something is wrong.

SO SHE GAVE ME ANTI BIOTICS...

at that moment, i couldn't help but think to myself.

if only medication looked like this:

OR this...

but no...

it has to look depressing. like this:

Evie's as sick as a madly sore throat infection can make anyone sick.

i really should go sleep now.

Joe would nag at me to sleep if he knows i'm still up using my computer.

so goodnight people.

but before i go...

thanks precious for buying lunch for me, and getting me honey lemon to drink.

thank you for getting me milk and doing whatever you can when i had the gastric due to the medicine.

thanks super much for being super sweet and caring even though you yourself weren't feeling too good either.

you

are

the

SUN to my SUNSHINE.

love you loads pumpkins.

hee. today while playing game with JoeBoy.

*we were playing dynasty warrior*

Me: *whining* dear! i almost killed him already. then you come and..... blablabla (can't remember what i said but i was whining cause he *KILLSTEAL!)

Joe: *seeing how agitatedly pouty i was he became very apologetic* sorry dear, i dunno what i was thinking. i thought it was funny. and my power was full so i went to kill him.

Me: *still whining* dear, i hardly get to kill CaoCao you know! the last time i killed him was when i used Zhao Yun.

Joe: sorry sorry, i promise you i won't do it again okay? :)

Me: *pouts*

Joe: okay okay, how about... i promise you that i will love you forever :)

Me: *grins*

you tell me lah, how not to grin. :D

& we did pinkypromise. ^^

he is such a sweet heart.

PLUS... he always lets me use the better condition PS2 controller, and uses the lousier one.

can't stop thanking God for such a sensitive, thoughtful man who is balanced up with some irritating annoying crazy nonsense. :)

LOVE YOU JOEBOY.

*by the way to kill steal means to like, steal someone's kill by interfering during the last few hits. you get the experience points and all :)

okies. that's all for today.

i'm tired.

goodnight~

sweet dreams all you late sleepers. or early sleepers. :)

whichever you are.

like a little girl lost in her own fantasy world

2010-04-23T00:51:00.003+08:00

feeling like a little baby noww.

nah. not really.

more like a little teenage girl in her own fantasy world.

well, technically, i AM still a teen.

but i'm supposed to be like the more mature teen already.

right now? i'm just feeling like i'm 13.

slightly dumb, slightly immature, impulsive, emotional.

yah, you get what i mean don't you?

& i REALLY want to play my guit now. xept for the fact that it's 1amish

and i have work tomorrow.

ahh, i don't want to care.

seriously.

i'm in the mood where i don't freaking want to think about consequences now.

let me do what i wanna do.

unfortunately there's still a little bit of me that's sane... & keeping me from doing stupid things

If only i had like a sound prove room. that would be like so cool.

yes, listen to me fantasize. sometimes, thats the only way i can console myself.

if you haven't already noticed. yes i'm on a high.

a high of immaturity.

no, don't judge me.

let me have my passing moments. :)

everything feels kinda colourless at the moment.

not forgetting the fact that my head really hurts.

no. it's not funny.

what's not funny? having a bad headache.

bleh. you didn't laugh? good. don't even smile.

i'm feeling shitloads of moodiness.

shucks.

too tired to try to be little miss sunshine.

but someone could try to brighten up my life :)

kind people are always welcome.

I WANT CHOCOLATE!!!

how about flowers? flowers always cheer me up.

heh. not really. don't buy me flowers on normal days.

they ARE a waste of money.

but on special occasions? :)

hee. they are one of the steps to perfection.

BLEH.

i freaking miss my friends now.

those darlings i used to chill with after school till late late.

ESP you BESTIE!

hehe, so long ago mann...

I STILL HAD BLACK HAIR! & I WORE SPECIES EVERYDAY!

massively cool picture.

& i was so into leggings then.

haha!

see? the crazy nonsense we did.

MADLY AWESOME FRIENDS! PLEASE LET'S ORGANISE AN OUTING SOON!

you know what... i'm going to do one on facebook.

can't take it already.

miss you all until i can cry.

hee. :) let's hope it's be successful. ^^

okay people. nuff said.

it's almost 2 am now. & i'm finally finishing my blog post.

feeling less whiney now. so yuppies ^^

it's all good!

Evie's like a CRAZY mann.

nothing can bring me down for more than... a day?

hee. all the glory to God. His grace is indeed sufficient.

okay. treat for you people.

this is me. in my hot sexy shreky uniform.

you have to love it.

p.s - sorry for the terrible lighting. i was in my break room.

WHAT DO I LOOK LIKE?
CLOWN? CHINESE WAITRESS? haha... go ahead and name them all.

i still love my job.

you get to be hyper, get to see happy people, smile at people, be friendly, talk to little kiddos, laugh, be crazy and all happy & giggly. & you won't get sacked. cause that's precisely what you're supposed to do.

no coloured nails though & weirdo uniform.

but i get to talk like a DEEJAY & get to operate the controls of the ride.

AWESOME~

okay people. goodnight to ALL OF YOU~

kisses from me to you ^^

or how about kisses from this baby? :)

i know most of you would choose the latter ey?

hee. i would too.

NITES!~

13 year old whiney princess signing off.

see you in the lalas

first dance

2010-04-22T03:11:00.002+08:00

i couldn't sleep so i decided to YOUTUBE~

& there i was just listening to random songs...

& this one made me feel so comfy.

i realised. i haven't danced with a guy before. LOL! (not counting in performances la duh)

i wanna give my first dance to that special someone.

hee. you know who you are. kayz, i'm gonna try snoozing listening to this song.

argh, so lovely.

i'm falling deeper deeper deeper in love ^^

p.s - i chatted with bestie online just now. mad mad happy~

life spells awesome for me

2010-04-22T01:47:00.002+08:00

okay. life isn't really peaking up well.

not as well as i thought it should.

or i should say that, it is... but it's taking quite some time.

but i'm not here to whine or complain.

what i've come to realise?

is that... no matter where you are in life...

there will always be something, someone, somewhatever that pisses you off or makes things shitty...

so on and so forth.

but it's not about trying to make life perfect.

it's about finding perfection in imperfection.

no... life ain't fantastic right now.

up down left right... problems and potential problems...

but whats the point of getting stuck with problems or being busy trying to prevent problems...

that you forget to notice the beautiful moments around you?

i mean. it's good to avoid problems.

of late... i've been kinda careful with the choices i make.

at the same time, i've been consciously chasing away bad thoughts.

and thinking positive, attracting the good stuff :)
it's kinda crazy... the whole process.

BIGGIE CHANGE FOR ME.

i've been quite cynical about life the past few years.

but yeah... i'm trying to turn it around for myself...

God can't save someone who constantly intentionally tries to kill herself with bad thoughts right?

& what i've noticed?

the more you think positive? the happier you become. :)

it's kinda cool. everything seems better.

you start noticing the good things and ignoring the bad ones.

AWESOME!

so life really spells awesome for me right now.

it's beautiful.

& i thank God for that.

ohh... i spent some time doing some worshipping today...

& i wrote a really short and simple worship song.

gosh... God really makes people talented.

my blog is getting boring.

i'm ranting on and on daily about stuff.

plain nothingy stuff. hee.

well, i don't really care for the fact that it is my blog and i can do anything i want right?

but i do care too because... i am grateful for my wonderful friends who read my blog to find out if i'm a-okay.

so darlingest friends. i'm GOOD! & AWESOME!

yikes i gotta goooo.

it's 2am & i've got an awesome lunch date tomorrow with my one and only JOEBOY!

hee. nights people~

GOD is the AWE in my AWESOME.

& the rest of you? make up the rest of it :) just that my family & JOE + his family & BESTFRIENDS make up a bigger part of the SOME

i love you all!~ God BLESS~ have an awesome day~

SUPERSTITION & what not

2010-04-21T15:46:00.003+08:00

a magic ball, which churnes out answers based on a pre-programmed function.
yet people pay to actually get their answers questioned.
how did i end up on that page?
yes, same thing, i wanted to have my question answered.
(but i didn't in the end :) cause of the money factor.)

why do people seek comfort in such weak forms of assurance.
this is one thing, i as a human can never understand.
it's the nature of us all.
if you realised... horoscope, fortune telling, and the list goes on.
one after another... are they really reliable?

i won't say that they aren't...
but at the same time. is life really so full of rules?
are they really stuck within a box of can't do this and can do that.
i mean rules are fine. but rules based on... the time you were born, the lines on your hand...
worse still... some based on nothing.

i believe in rules. rules that are there with reason.
why do you allow yourself to live in a world of falsity and fakeness?
a world of which your comfort is based on something so invalid and unreal.
oh wells... just pouring out my thoughts really.

today is a day of chilling. been kinda unwell of late.
throat mad sore. and body mad tired.
i slept like a baby for about 10hours.
my body needed it to recover.

innyhoos... i've got loads of things to get done.
but probably not today? feeling mad unwell.
darlingJoe has been a treasure.
yesterday, i was watching TV at his place.
he went outside to shift the car.
when he came back, i guess i was looking sad because i was watching some emo korean breakup.
super dramatic okay (the show i mean)

Joe: what you watching baby?
Me: some korean show.
Joe: mmm.
Me: dear, let's stay like this forever okay? everybody seems to be breaking up.
Joe: of course dear. just be my good girl.

:)

really thank God for him.
he probably is the only person (besides family of course) who has seen my bad sides and yet still loves me so much.
i prayed real hard that this year would be my miracle year.
& i guess it is :) 20days after 2010 started...
he found me...
& life was never the same again.

OKAY. enough cheesiness.
this happy girl is going to do some USEFUL stuff...
LOVE YOU GUYS!
have an awesome day! (or whatever is left of it anyway~ ^^)

byee~

thank God

2010-04-19T01:19:00.003+08:00

thank God in every situation.

though it really isn't easy all the time.

i've got work today & just hours before now...

just before i slept... i fell hitting my chest and my hip.

hurts big big time.

woke up feeling mad sore.

& i'll be moving around loads today cause i'll be hanging around with kids and all.

o.k.a.y... i've got to be positive. :)

God will give me my miracle and take away my pain because He's paid for it upon the cross already.

SO PEOPLE SMILE no matter how lousy your day is feeling alright?

yes, because smiling makes you even more gorgeous than you already are.

hee. I JUST LOVE BABIES~

& for the crazy people who love giraffes :)

p.s~ i know i'm going to sound really noob... but i didn't know blogspot could upload gif images.

That's all for now~ gotta go prepare for work~
HAVE AN AWESOME DAY PEOPLE.

muacksness.

isn't this picture just SO cute? ^^

LOVE.

VEE

dream dream dream~

2010-04-18T12:57:00.002+08:00

i realised how much of a dreamer i am.

as in, not the dreams you dream of when you're in your bed at night.

but the dreams that you dream when your brain has nothing better to do.

dreams of being successful, helping people, being happy.

yadayada. the list goes on.

nothing wrong with that... but when the dreams that i dream of don't come to past yet... it does get a little depressing at times.

but i'm going to stay positive :)

and keep on dreaming those dreams.

church was awesome yesterday. the message really was yet another spot on one for me.

& really, thank God for His amazing rhema word in my life.

it's so amazing when God speaks because it's really different from anyone else telling you the same thing.

& i'm really pretty glad that as i try my utmost best to change my mindsets and emotions...

God holds my hand and walks me through it.

it surprised me even more when i read the post just before cell group.

i was saying that i needed someone to hold my hand through it and tell me that i'm going to be okay.

honestly, at that point of time, i really wasn't thinking of God.

i was thinking more of like a someone, a human, a friend.

but God, He Himself holds me through this now.

is it amazing or what?

that even though there are millions of people in this world...

He still cares. about me.

thank You Jesus.

so things are all getting better and all.

i must say it feels good to be set free from all those tormenting thoughts and feelings.

BUT. i'm not going to let down my guard.

because i can feel that the spiritual warfare is indeed strong.

PRAY FOR ME PEOPLE!

especially you UGF! your prayers ar... always like damn power one. ^^

okiedooks. going to spend sometime with daddy God before i meet love love. :)

byee people. have an awesome sunday!

Vee

good morning~

2010-04-17T11:35:00.003+08:00

haivng an awesome saturday?

I AM!~ woohoo ^^

so anyway, i dreamt of zombies last night and i smashed one of their heads with a nail polish bottle.

LOL, talk about weird dreams man. hilarious. ^^

watched resident evil yesterday with Tardmonster. & did my nails too...

so that probably explains the dream. but it's so cute lah.

the combination :p bleh.

today is church day~ yippees~

but my tummy is hurting. & i have no idea why :(

okiedooks gotta go. :) need to prepare to go out already cause sugarlove is coming to pick me.

^^ i'm so fortunate.

byeee world *muacks muacks*

this is just yet another random short update on my life. :)

hope it didn't bore you ^^

:) more than a sweet melody

2010-04-17T02:38:00.002+08:00

darling told me today after cell group: Prayer's NEVER FAIL.

Amen.

Dear God,

thanks for not forgetting me.

even in a moment like this.

THANK YOU.

cell group message today was spot on for me.

spoke directly to me.

A-amazing.

just when i was at the peak of giving up.

when i thought nothing was going to work out.

i gave my faith one last boost and cried out to God for help.

& He answered me.

i guess He has His reasons why He took His time to give me this rhema word.

probably because He wanted me to just feel the desperation of needing Him in my life.

Lord, as much as i have many desires for my miracles...

there is one thing i desire more than the miracles...

it is that my life honours You.

because it is an honour that You are in my life.

it's an amazingly awesome feeling. when Jesus puts His arms around you and gives you this peace of mind. AWESOME.

& darlingJSWJ you are such a sweetheart. :)

thank YOU. for being the one who reminds me not to give up on God. because doing that is just plain stupid.

okiedooks, time to hit the snoozeysnooze.

tomorrow is going to be an awesome day.

GOODNIGHT WORLD!

here's leaving you some food for thought...

you are what you think.

& the best thing about that? is that... in the thought world, there are no limits, no boundaries.

so think the best thoughts :) the happiest thoughts :) the most awesome thoughts :)

because what you concentrate on will grow and what you ignore will shrink.

as for me? i'm thinking about being a fantastic early childhood educator and being the bestest example for children. i'm thinking about being successful because the favour of the Lord is upon me. i'm thinking of the blessings God is pouring into my life and has yet to pour in my life. i'm thinking about fulfilling and satisfying relationships because i AM a people person and i love all of you :). wow... my life is awesome. because my thought life is. :)

how about yours?

nights!~

LOVE :)

2010-04-16T14:14:00.002+08:00

this is just awesome :)

loved this ttm.

ANYWAY... i'm on my journey of finding the ANGEL in the EVANGELINE...

geddit? :) it's not as easy as sifting out letters.

it's going to be a tough one.

but little miss nice girl is back into action.

only for one reason... i don't wanna be an emo freak that disappoints daddy God.

one life, live it.

i'll be that example... for the little children out there ^^

BYEE PEEPS... gotta RUNN.

loads to do today ^^

time for miracles

2010-04-16T11:54:00.002+08:00

meteors in midwest sky, kid died during taekwondo match, maid putting drugs in employer's soup, cabbie suing government, better jobs for fresh grads...

that is what's in the news this friday.

good news bad news, crazy news.

this IS life for you. well... the 10% of it :)

if you read my facebook statuses you would know what i'm saying.

so what's up on you people's mind this awesome friday?

first things first, thank God its friday.

It's an awesome feeling to look forward to the weekend.

let me tell you what's on my mind this awesome friday...

1. facing my problem

2. getting myself ready for work

so a-okay, yes, i admit it, life isn't at it's peak right now.

& i honestly feel like i'm hanging from a cliff all over again.

emotions, situations, other people's responds, that makes up the 10%.

what i choose to do about it? makes up the other 90%

so i can choose to be all so emotional right now, and yes i am a freaking emotional person...

but that will mean, a bigger price to pay. not worth it.

but it's like human instinct right? to just react and not respond.

we humans are so weird. our carnal nature makes us so so weird.

and so what i'm trying to get at is that i need a life change.

it's not wrong to be spontaneous.

but i need to be more conscious when the bad situations come in...

i need to be stronger emotionally and mentally and more conscious.

this post would not make much sense to those who have no idea what life is like for me atm.

so yes, you can just stop reading this and yupps :)

but let's just say, i'm at a point where i may lose, something... that means too much to me.

so i can just choose to let it go... or... i can choose to hold on, pay a price and stick with this decision. honestly, it is a tough call. Because sometimes letting go is so much easier.

In this case? i really don't know. which is easier, which is more sensible, which... is the one God would agree to?

yes, i need to pray. pray hard. i need God to show me! give me a sign! i need... a miracle.

miracle = letting go of my own ego and desires. doing things right.

tough. ego is so humongously big.

i'm sorry for boring all of you with this long post where i do nothing but rattle on about life.

but i need an outlet to let out my thoughts too.

first step? believe that all will work out now.
second step? act on what i believe.
third step? believe that what i have done is working.
fourth step? just be happy.
fifth step? thank God in all these steps.
footnote: if any of the steps above fail, just turn to God and praise Him in all situations.

generated these FIVE steps to help people through difficult moments.

now... it's time for me to act on it.

it's time for me to find that cheerful bubbly me that has gone hiding for too long.

time to put on the smiles that chase away the blues.

i'm gonna be okay.

i believe it... i'm gonna be okay.

just someone, hold my hand... and walk with me... and assure me that i'm going to be okay.

love all of you stinkypoos reading my blog.

nah, you're not the stinkypoo... i am! haha, need to go wash up and head out soon. ^^

BYE PEEPZ!

i love ALL of YOU!

keep staying positive.

you are creating your life with the thoughts in your mind.

tata~

debabom

2010-04-16T01:56:00.003+08:00

yes. debabom. that is the word on my mind this friday 156AM.

i AM freaking pissed.

i finally reached my peak.

call back or don't call back.

whatever.

seriously...

no point already.

for what? i'm not even happy.

useless.

hopeless.

angry.

you can put the blame on me.

yah kay, i will take it ALL in.

make me the one who carries all the burdens.

whatever.

enough... is really enough.

& tonight i feel the real essence of the phrase.

WORKAHOLIC

2010-04-15T12:51:00.002+08:00

work at USS has been a crazy ride.

LITERALLY.

sat on one of the rides yesterday.

OMG!

haha. those of you who have sat on the revenge of the mummy ride...

would know what i mean.

it's THRILLING!

but super scary la.

Neeways. it's finally days off for me till work continues.

& i'll be going to sing kbox today.

ARINA DARLING! YOU FLY ME AEROPLANE!

better go out with me soon ar...

i miss you leh :(

i'm looking for tuition lobangs.

have must tell me!

i am working real hard this year to earn as much money as i can.

to prove to myself things that i've yet to prove.

anyway, bro...

thanks for thinking through what i said and i'm so glad you've woken up.

GOOD FOR YOU!~~

love you max max. ^^

okiedooks. I'm missing my castle in USS already.

my crazy fun castle. where Shrek lives ^^.

gotta go peepoles... will update more soon!

with PICTURES! hee.

leave me some love on my tagboard...

but please leave your names too ^^ if possible lah.

BYEEE! have an awesome day!

had to say this... only cause i still cared

2010-04-12T01:31:00.004+08:00

stop living in denial

if you're with him because HE'S RICH

admit it

if you're with him because HE'S HANDSOME

admit it

if you're with him because HE'S TALENTED

admit it

don't say you don't know when he asks you why you love him

don't lead him on if he asks you if you truly love him

Love isn't based on his money, looks or talent.

Love him because you know you want to make him happy.

Love him because he too loves you.

keep it simple.

i'm starting to dislike you.

stop toying with his heart.

you. mean. thing.

no. he isn't more than a friend to me.

don't get me wrong.

i'm not envious of the attention he's giving you.

like, seriously. so stop telling him that i'm just envious that he's caring for you alot.

he's never meant more than a bro to me.

grow up girl.

i just want him to be happy.

he's met enough shitty girls.

don't be yet another one.

WAKE UP YOUR IDEA PLEASE.

(names were not mentioned in this post to protect the people involved but if you know that this is for you. good. read it and think about what you've done. stop messing with his life.)

mad mad angry.

& to you bro.

it's not worth it, if all she can ever talk about is how her ex loved her.

it's not worth it, if she says that she loves you just so she can call you when she has no one else to turn to.

it's not worth it, if she only meets you when you tell her you've got a gift for her.

isn't it obvious already?

i know you loved her long ago. & you still love her now.

but is this the her you really love?

i miss the happy go lucky you.

the you who used to smile at every single stupid thing.

you know what you deserve bro. remember how girls went after you and you'd just shake them off because you didn't feel that they were right for you?

where's that confident you?

you told me not to care anymore and let you be emo.

i hope you think through hard after reading this.

because life isn't over when someone who doesn't appreciates you slips away.

in fact... life should get better. one less plastic person to handle and deal with.

i'm sorry if i was harsh over the phone just now...

i know i told you i give up...

but you should know better. that i still care.

take care bro.

to anyone out there, getting lesser than anything you deserve.

rethink your decisions. don't, take, second best... when you know, you can get the best.

goodnight world. i love all of you.

thanks for reading my ultra boring blog.

you guys are great!

hello awesome world

2010-04-12T01:03:00.002+08:00

i had an awesome day today...

& i am really MAD tired.

-.- my eyes are almost semi closed already. heh.

but guess what? i'm still on facebook.

yes i know, i'm a crazy FACEBOOK MONSTER.

innyhoos, i went to my pet society & my petlings ran away.

DUMB thing was that i remember feeding them just before i quit the game yesterday.

& you know the awesome part?

the food i fed them was left on the floor.

WOW. now pet society pets can PUKE. amazing.

cost me 400ps money to get them back. so dumb.

& my country story farm is close to rotting.

TOMORROW is my first day of work.

hee. not going to be sick this time. & i'm going to get my ass to work ON TIME.

but the problem is... i still have no idea how to get there.

probably will take mrt to jurong area then take a cabby...

yet another boring blog post for all of you.

pictureless... SORRY!

goodnight world.

wish me best of luck for work tomorrow.

I'm EXCITED. peaceout.

p.s. - i love it when you agree to things that really matter to me. ^^ thank you.

dear diary...

2010-04-11T09:38:00.002+08:00

it's one of those moments where Evie stops to pray

i'm really tired... from life

& God seems to be testing me

well, He knows what i can endure

& i am honoured He thinks so highly of me

but i think i'm reaching a point where i have to make a decision

to die to myself and live for Him

or to ignore Him and live for myself

the choice is obvious

i choose You Lord...

& if i have to choose again

i'll choose You

because it's no longer i who lives

but Christ who lives in me

1 day, 2 moovies

2010-04-10T12:31:00.003+08:00

helloooo people.

crazy Vee watched 2 movies in ONE day!

"how to train your dragon" with God Bro ^^

&
"date night" with my cell :)

i really liked both shows. freaking funny :)

heh... my brain is semi concussed with a weird invisible pressure.

still got church later.

Piggy Joseph is still sleeping :/

so i'm watching re-runs on TV to entertain myself.

i'm blogging in bits because my mind is all over the place.

bleh.

neeways, something funny happened yesterday during cell group.

it was after the bible sharing, and we were finishing up cell with a worship song.

& then... this was what happened, after the worship song.

Joe: Did someone just come into the room?

Me: Huh? No?

Joe: I thought i smelt Jesus.

Me: ???

Joe: *sniffs around, then smells my shirt* OHH! It's you lah.

Me: HAHAHAHAHAHA!

so now i smell like Jesus? Hilarious.

but i heard that its true that sometimes God's presence is so strong you can smell Him...

no idea how true though... Cool mann... i wonder how God smells like. must be pretty awesome.

So i was browsing through my computer for pictures to upload for this blog post and i found this...

Remember this fellow ECH-ians?

(esp those who sat through my presentation? ^^)

Did this 2 picture thingies for one of my last semester modules.

Organisation Behaviour & Human Resource Management Studies. (i think i rmbed correctly)

sounds so business like right? heh, yea, & i'm not in any business course la.

EARLY CHILDHOOD. the course which will provide you with loads of exposure... to many subject areas. :) though recalling the assignments, i still feel the shivers down my spine... I HAD FUN!~ & i would say, i don't regret it. :) HEE~ *advertisement ^^*

So here's a little something i learnt about stress management that i wanna share with you guys...

there are 2 kinds of stress.

ONE of which is BAD... & that's distress. Explanation below...

So basically. When one is distress, there is TOO much stressors in the person's life. & the person's personality is unable to balance out the stressors or cope with the stressors

& then there's EUSTRESS

Where the amount of stressors in the person's life is just about enough for the person's personality to cope with and match up to. & this of course... is GOOD STRESS!

so, if you're feeling stressed in a bad way, it's time to change the way you say it...

I'M SO DISTRESSED! not... I'M SO STRESSED :)

because not all stress is bad... & life without stress isn't good.

there was a case study done on amoebas... those self reproducing creatures you learnt about in Primary school?

yupps ^^ (if you still don't know what they are you can go google it)

When amoebas are placed in a totally stress free environment... they didn't reproduce on its own... and in the end it died!!!

hmm, interesting. guess it goes to show that a little stress is good righto?

so ask me why i'm blogging about stress all of a sudden?

1. I MISS GIVING PRESENTATIONS!

-heh, i know. crazy right? complained so much about them during poly life. & now... i MISS them.

but i miss poly life. it still feels surreal that I'm already DONE with poly education.

2. I am currently in an environment which feels rather taxing on my emotions.

-& i really do not want to fall under the category of being distressed. so i'm trying to brainwash myself that through being strong, my character can match up with the amount of stressors in the environment. (but sometimes the harder you try, the more distressed you get?) oh wells. I CAN DO IT THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH! ^^

3. Just wanted to dedicate this to the people in my life going through Crazy loads of stressors.

-OKAY, maybe not crazy loads. as long as you are feeling down and out and pushed around by life, i hope this post helped you in the way that... you will try try try not to let those stressful situations (stressors) get you and your character down. Or you could try eliminating some stressors from your life? Don't take on too many things :) LOVE YOURSELF & TREAT YOURSELF WELL!

4. I just wanna say. Stress isn't a bad thing ^^

-YUPPS, number 4 kinda speaks for itself doesn't it. Thank God in all situations. Even in distressful moments and i'm pretty sure that the courage and strength He empowers you with will make any distress become an eustress. Because all things work out for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purposes yea? ^^ & it is in Him that we gain the strength and faith to do ALL THINGS!

That's it for my crazily long post. :)

Hope it blessed all of my readers ^^

LOVE Y'ALL!

thanks for dropping by playful ballads.

YOU ARE LOVED.

Byeeee

fishballs in ADIDAS

2010-04-09T00:48:00.003+08:00

i like my post title.

i really like my post title.

HEE!~

i am a pretty fishball and check out my DOPE adidas shirt man!

MAD LOVES! you won't be able to guess how much i bought it for ^^

(actually i don't even rmb it myself, but i think it's about 4USD)

Mad cheap right? MASSIVE!

& this is why i love my web cam SO MUCH

it takes photos with not so high resolution and make it super fast to upload.

WOOHOO!~

(talking about uploading... i still can't upload the pics up on facebook! HELP!)

somebody call 911~

okay, i'm tarded. & super sleepy. hee.

webcam-ed with tardmonster just now...

& see what he was doing?

showing off... HAHAHAHA!

he's mad cute lah.

bad start for today.

but all's AWESOME now :)

Vee's a happy girl who's going to go to bed happily, dream sweet dreams and wake up happy.

ohh, and tomorrow, i may be going to meet one of the peoples ( i know how to spell people, it was intentional :p) who gave me this carebear... guess whoooo? not telling you~~~

stay tuned to find out~~~ :)

fly that someone aeroplane THREE TIMES.

shame on me right? yea... i know. heh.

now people busy also so abit hard to meet. good on you VEE! tsk.

alrighty people... made some changes to my blog... hope you like it!~

feel free to comment on my tagboard... YES I DO HAVE A TAGBOARD... go use it.

hee. LOVE Y'ALL.

byeeee

Super COOL Teacher. ^^

2010-04-08T13:06:00.002+08:00

This is a freaking awesome teacher.

i mean like, he must really love his students to put in the effort to do these kinda stuff for them.

just to make them laugh a little :)

MASSIVE! love him.

If i ever do become a teacher...

i'm going to be like him.

well... that's if i ever do become a teacher. we'll see we'll see... sigh.

JIAYOU VEE! JIAYOU JIAYOU!

Neeways... today had a bad bad start.

okay, maybe i willed it to happen. but even then... tsk. =/

let's hope things get better from here :)

BFN~ ^^

you're the best thing i never knew i needed

2010-04-07T16:59:00.002+08:00

haha! yes, this is going to be yet another lovely dovey post.

I am so GLAD i re downloaded photoscape.

i deleted it the other time, because (i forgot why)...

BUT i re downloaded it today and whoopeedoobah!~

i made magic out of an already nice picture ^^ hee.

I know this is going to sound so super cliche.

But, one of the bestest feelings in the world is when the person you love... loves you back :)

when you love a dumb dumb so dumb he makes you dumb

2010-04-07T12:43:00.006+08:00

Good afternoon WORLD! (p.s - ignore post title... author is slightly high on erm... dumbness ^^)

how's your day coming along?

i had an awesome start cause sweet little pumpkinJoe sent me two smses this morning while i was still snoozing like a baby.

what can be a better way than to start your day with reading LOVE from the one you LOVE right? :)

Neeways, last night, before i went to bed... i did a FACEBOOK STATUS ANALYSIS!

it's super duper cool! :) it actually analyses all the statuses that you've updated so far and shows you the most used words.

saw this on Bestie's profile and decided to give it a try too :)

LIFE was my most used word.

i wasn't really expecting that... cause i thought my statuses are kinda lifeless and boring and yougetthegist.

Happy was the second most used word.

i am a HappyBubble :) so... i think that's kinda nice ^^

LOVE was the third. heh... i must have done pretty many confessions through my statuses. :p

& GOD was fourth. but He's definitely first in my life. :)

Interesting though, that GLORY MAN UNITED was in my most used words list too.

haha, this football thing is becoming an OBSESSION!.

& another interesting fact?

i used the word "want" more than the word "need".

&... i realised i do emphasize quite abit. Notice how i used the words REALLY and AGAIN.

well... :) hee. i like this app. facebook should come out with more of such things. ^^

& i'm missing B02~~

heh... i BLOCKED DOTDOT'S face in this picture.

see, i've got freaking long arms. =/ tsk.

ohh, and i wasn't leaning on weihan's shoulder. :p

though i know it looks like it. heh!

Luckily, they retook the picture... this time... with my hands down.

last but not least...

i like my new church friends :)

esp peiyi ^^ & julian ^^ (& of course there are others but i just can't remember their names. SORRY!)

they're really NICE NICE NICE people

(decided to add this picture in cause i happened to see the easter card they wrote for me on my table ^^)

p.s - i like how my hair looks in this picture.

Talking about hair. something incredulously funny happened last night...

Me: Joe, should I change my hairstyle to center parting?

Joe: No? I like you, like this. I like you the way you are.

Me: But this IS center parting.

Joe: *takes a second look, & pauses to think for awhile* No? It's not. It's center point parting.

HAHAHA! is that cute? or what? ^^

seriously, sometimes, he makes me want to pinch his cheeks.

he's so adorable. :p

& i forgot what else he said that made me laugh so terribly hard yesterday.

but he's awesome.

old & new

2010-04-06T17:53:00.004+08:00

just read some of the posts in my old bloggie.

i SERIOUSLY need to find useful things to occupy myself with.

e.g. flying to Cambodia again. HEH! just kidding. i would probably be too MISSED! LOL! (no wonder no one believes that i'm shy...) HAHA!

feeling kinda high now. God knows why. super RANDOM!

anyway, here's some old stuff i found which i found GOOD TO SHARE. :)

some stuff just never grow old ^^

what kind of a name is that? i kinda feel embarrassed for the lady in the advert.

well, to the pure all things are pure right?

bad on me then. XS

Neeways, reading up my past has made me realised what kind of a lousy memory i have...

i was like, OMG did THAT really happen?

and that too? Did i really do that?

No way, i couldn't have said that.

In the end, i stopped doing that and just told myself... oh well, Vee, this is life for you.

& you should just be glad that, it was an experience of a lifetime... that you... FORGOT.

what a way of consoling myself.

but seriously. if i could pray for something... i'd ask God for a memory disk upgrade.

but then again, maybe He lets me forget stuff for a REASON. & i should just be thankful yah?

another thing i found out...

after looking through my blog posts...

i found out that...

I'VE BEEN RETARDED ALL THIS WHILE!

hee. or at least since after puberty. i used to be really shy and quiet. though i know half of my friends would probably not believe me. :)

okiedooks, this week people is going to be my super duper last week of awesome freedom.

ASK ME OUT YOU KNOW WHOS...

FISH!!! ESP YOU!!! i want to go out with you =p

& JMK, don't so busy lah, dinner also can right?

& BROKK! hee. where's my long awaited jamming session ^^

Last BUT NOT LEAST

ADEGANHUIMIN TWINNY! let's go out pretty pretty please?

miss you to the MAX.

okies. BYEEE PEEPZ.

i still miss Cambodia. heh. i should just go live there already. :)

will it blend?

2010-04-06T13:48:00.002+08:00

this is DAMN DUMB!

give me the phone please? instead of doing these kind of nonsense.

BUT... is it even real?

hee. :)

been catching up with my youtube videos lately.

they keep my upbeat :) especially SHAYTARDS!

major LOVES.

hope y'all are having a nice nice day.

thanks to all dearies who have been checking on me to see if i'm okay.

i am feeling way better today as compared to yesterday :)

let's see if i can keep my smile on :)

i sure hope i can~

Byeee

The Rose

2010-04-06T13:39:00.002+08:00

Beautiful song... that i fell in love with since i was a kiddo.

Thinking back, it wasn't the tune that attracted me. I mean, the melody isn't THAT fantastic...

BUT...

the lyrics really captivated me... and listening to it now... just brings back awesome memories.

and gives me a really warm-ish feeling.

Hope my readers enjoy this :)

reflect on the lyrics... ^^ it's yummilicious for your mind and soul~

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
that leaves your soul to blead

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of wakingthat never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dyingthat never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

:) & i realised...

2010-04-06T01:17:00.005+08:00

everything is a-okay...

as long as we're spending quality time together.

& now i understand why people tell me... that it takes time.

to build it up.

don't let your impatience... tear it down, or stop you from constructing something so beautiful.

Time means hell alot of things. CLICHE but TRUE.

Innyhoos... FEVER IS ALMOST GONE!!! (i think)

didn't take temperature. but... i don't feel as woozymomma as before.

went to Baby's God parent's house for dinner.

heh... though it's always kinda awkward in the beginning... i must say I LOVE THE KIDS.

esp Xavier. damn CUTE!

& i love talking to his God sis. their convers are super interesting to listen to. :)

it was nice seeing Joe's Mommy smile today.

& today i discovered. I can't lie for nuts. hee.

& looking back at how we were and how we are now...

i can only smile :)

because i'm glad that we've come this far.

okiedooks... time to snoozey...

so that Mr.Feeverr won't come back.

goodnight peepoole!

Veeeeee

300th post

2010-04-05T18:00:00.003+08:00

when everything goes dark...

i thank God, He remembers that i'm afraid of being alone in the dark...

and even though He let's me face my fears...

He sits by my side, and faces it with me.

I'm not alone.

& i thank God for that.

and because He lives, i can face the future

BIGBIG DOUBLEYOU

2010-04-05T17:39:00.002+08:00

did you highlight this post to read this?

sigh, everybody knows this trick now so cannot use :(

i'm having an ultra bad day

and i'm trying to make it awesome

but it's impossible

i'm feeling semi suicidal

omg yes, i'm crazy

fever burning my brain

nobody loves me

i hate being sick

haha. emo shit.

so many things i want to say but i can't

MOODY~~~

blehx

somebody hug me and shower me with love

pretty please?

i'm rotting with neglect

BAH

no one to confide in but my pretty pretty blog

mad upset

*pouts*

& to you? sigh... you're a MAJOR FAILURE bigbigbig DOUBLEYOU to you.

go talk to my hand you loser.

YOU ARE NOT AN ALPHAMALE

YOU'RE AN L-FAR-MALE

a Loser who is FAR from being a MAN.

idiot.

who am i talking about?

for me to know and for you?

to stop trying to guess.

bleh

nobody

2010-04-05T15:21:00.003+08:00

[[deleted]]

because i thought you could become nobody to me, just like how i became nobody to you

but it turns out... i can't

and i still love you.

though, you disappoint me like crazy...

Playful Ballads

change is good :) or at least in this situation :)

pain pain & more pain

i miss my friends

an msn conversation

could you keep a secret for me?

I BELIEVE :)

unasleep

loved much

bubbly love

to my darlingest Justinoh *ahem* i mean DONKEY *ahem* i mean Toh Yan Shan Justina

stupidity

ugf

i can only SMILE :) cause it's just the way i am

just a heartwarming video :)

motivation starts with M... so does the word ME :)

close it all in

dear...

if i have been in any way offending... i apologise :)

way too early for that little bit of sunshine

awesome spells you and i :)

a love filled with laugh, & a laugh full of love

things that make me happy

htht :)

hush hush little baby

twinnypotatoGANHUIMIN

blank

singing a love song to me

g-g-g-good morning

you and i

99

whatever the weather you can stand under my umbrella

like a little bit crazy

mind power

so painful

the difference

my favourite pink crayon

like a memory you wish to forget

good afternoon

sleepless

what the... yea, you know what i wanted to say

when nothing beats... a little time out

lunch

s.o.s

1stMay

c-c-c-c-CAREBEAR family :)

understand comprehend love

scolded

because love is more than just a game for 2

fresh wounds

supper is LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

*note to self*

peace that surpasses all understanding

throataches :(

smiles nobody sees

sick to my pits.

like a little girl lost in her own fantasy world

first dance

life spells awesome for me

SUPERSTITION & what not

thank God

dream dream dream~

good morning~

:) more than a sweet melody

LOVE :)

time for miracles

debabom

WORKAHOLIC

had to say this... only cause i still cared

hello awesome world

dear diary...

1 day, 2 moovies

fishballs in ADIDAS

Super COOL Teacher. ^^

you're the best thing i never knew i needed

when you love a dumb dumb so dumb he makes you dumb

old & new

will it blend?

The Rose

:) & i realised...

to my darlingest Justinoh ahem i mean DONKEY ahem i mean Toh Yan Shan Justina

note to self